without sounding too emo, i've got a millionnn and one thoughts in my system, but i've done nothing but add more each day. i'm shunning away from expressing, i'm REPRESSING. like adam sandler in anger management. maybe i should sing, I FEEL PRETTTYY, OH SO PRETTTYY, blah blah blah. BLEAH

i say chinese new year this year is DIFFERENT. i can't say if its a good difference or a bad difference though. but i guess its a good difference. must be all auspicious talking ysee, its CNY! gahh (:

so luck hasn't been by to visit till yesterday night, yay yay. i shan't complain bout her delay as she rewarded me BOUNTIFUL AH. HUAAT AH. HAHAHAH, the phrase tickles me, god knows why.

i thinkkk i admire good hosts and hostesses. i can't seem to do it! and i definitely don't likee doing it. and all i have to blame is GENES. hurr (:

i had pretty high hopes for this new year and i guess more or less its a deal better than english new year and christmas. i must be more cheena and traditional than i know.

i'm lazy to post pictures but i will! HAHAH, i know thats what i alwayyys say but hey, i've a long boring day today until bestfriends come to visit! (:

but then again, the mindless dumbass of a tv might distract me. WE'LL SEE. after all, i still have session stuff to do. DANG.

once you keep one tooo many secrets, you lose track and you start to don't care. i don't care.

HUAAATTT AHHH. i need kakees. ):

EQUILIBRIUM twelve days feels like twelve years now. like seriously.

i wanted to blog yesterday but i fell asleep. whoooops. so i've decided to empty my heavy heart today. must. and i've decided to stop wanting to post pictures because i am faaar to lazy. blahh.

the temptations at the tip of my tongue. omgg. my cupboard is amazinglyyyyy fat! i buy and buy and squeeze and squeeze but today i know for sure that nothinggg else can go in! and i don't know what to doo! ): i've taken to hanging all my bottoms on a portable rack but eckk. wait till cny rolls around, which also just simply means in 6 days, my mommy is gna killll me. ): but there is NOTHING i wna throw! oh stab me.

it feels like a less stressful week of school because of chinese new year. but oddly so it stirs another weirdd sort of stress!

it feels funny blogging after so long damnit.

some people just get so EMO. queensway is cooool. i'm amazed and how much boys stuff they can pack in onee little mall. sure its a little ah beng style but hey clothes are clothes! (: i mean come on, i bought 3 tops please! HAHAH.

i promised myself i'll stop shopping when cny rolls around so wish me luck! and i'm betting quite alot this new year. call me superstitious blahblah but its my second chance at a new year and i'm gna make sure its right.

sometimes when you realise what a mistake you've made with just a littlee sentence/action/reaction, the regret just kills you. i don't know, maybe i'm just selfish but i can't seem to be the better half of me. i can't change. i can't give more than i take although i keep thinking i'm better ): am i making a mistake?

this is silly. i'm so afraid that some bonds will break, i don't know if i'm self-fulfilling prophesizing myself. i miss my life two years ago. i seriously do )):

i want so much to go back, to be this and to be that, to have this and have that, i think its freakingggg unhealthy and i'm going craaazy.

i wanted it to be a good post. to lay down my heavy heart, pour out my blah blah blah but i can't. i'm truly tired now. my days have run into each other and i can hardly know the difference between them now. my hours dragg and really, i don't know what im doing! i'm unsure, uncertain and terribblyyy confused ):

SEEKING i am still amazed at how sometimes life can get so damn down. and considering how this has struck me oh so many times, i'm amazed i have any amazement left.

my finger is throbbing and i feel insanely gay.

sometimes i wonder if its my fault i'm like this? so flawed. omggwashh.

but hey, its not the day to ponder. i've to concentrate on the happy things.

i'm not ready

ALPHA

K: kuek
M: moose!
N: nicole
P: peiying
R: rebecca


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