here i am on the phone again and
awkward silence is on the other end
i used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
but right now (right now) all i feel (all i feel)
is the pain of the fighting starting up again

all the things you talk about
you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
all the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time
after time, after time

don't say a word, i know you feel the same
just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
please don't walk away, i know you wanna stay
if you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

some say that time changes, best friends can become strangers
but i don't want that, no not for you
if you just stay with me we can make it through

so here we are again
same old arguement
now i'm wondering if things'll ever change you
when will you laugh again,
laugh like you did back when
we'd make noise til 3:00 A.M.
when the neighbors would complain

all the things you talk about
you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
all the things we laugh about
will bring us through it every time,
after time, after time

don't say a word, i know you feel the same
just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
please don't walk away, i know you wanna stay
if you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

i'm fallin, i'm fallin, i'm fallin down
i'm fallin, i'm fallin, i'm fallin down
down...down...down

(please don't leave)
don't say a word, i know you feel the same
just give me a sign, say anything, say anything
(please don't leave)
please don't walk away, i know you wanna stay
if you just give me a sign, say anything, say anything

the above song speaks to my heart mannnn. eckk. but i grateful for it because otherwise so i don't know how to put the pain/ache i'm feeling inside into words. family, friends, and whoever else i have, where'd they all go. somehow even though i know they're all around, i feel a strange sense of desertion.

insecurities they run deep. come back home.

AFTER-THOUGHT OH YAY i'm finally done! (: i don't know why some of the pictures look kindaaa odd, but i'm tired now. WAHA (:

have i mentioned that today's a pretty wonderful day? i don't know why but i just had that feelingg this morning when i woke up. i just knew it'll be a good day and indeed it was! its either i'm truly somewhat psychic or it was one of those mind over mater things. ah whatever! ((: WAHAHA.

so today was oh so good because
#1 i had a happy feast of a breakfast,
#2 and even though i was late for piano, piano was gooood! (:
#3 lunch was great, we had thai express! ((:
#4 and i bought hairbands and two tops today!
#5 i ran errands with mommy and enjoyed myself lo. we had tangyuan
#6 and we didn't have to wait long for any of our buses!
#7 i even talked to a nice lady today, she asked me about my cut, oh yes, i've got a FIVE INCH long cut on my upper thigh! ): so right, the lady told me about this freak needle accident.

i swear if we had time she'ld have told us her life story! AHAHA, so the story goes like this, her sister went to see a doctor yesterday and whilst she was leaving this girl came in, apparently this girl was sewing and she lost her needle but because she couldn't find it so she just whatever lo and continued sewing but then! when she finished and stood to walk she felt this pain in her leg la, so she looked right and realised that the needle went through her jeans and into her skin okay!! LIKE OMGGGGG.

so yes, this came about because i told her i got scratched by a pin. seriously, i'm so sway la. i keep getting injured ):

so right, back to my happy day!
#8 i think my mommy's going to buy me this nice smelling cherry blossom soap when she's got time, YAY!
#9 and right, then when we were taking the bus back i managed to catch president star! lucky lucky me! ((:
#10 and thennn, eh, what else, oh yes, my mommy gave me some expensive conditioner for my home treatment. ho ho.

SO SEE! isn't it a happy day? even though i freezed my ass off last night and had to leave my bed to pee at 4 in the morning, the day turned out pretty good! now i can't wait to go sleep. ):

soooooo its been a long week what with first week of school and all but i think it went better than i'd expected. (: i can't be greedy la, i'm pretty grateful actually that i even made it through! oh yay! so emm, yesterday i got to carry this ass heavy bouquet of sunflowers to church! (: this is 6 sunflowers we're talking about okay! (: with a cute bubbly water bag which allows the bouquet to stand on its own. and it was given by adrian pang to my bosses! but they didn't have any use for it so i brought it as an offering for the upcoming big show! i'm sooo exciteeeed. minus the fact that i mightt have to redye my hair. actually secretly, i think i like the colour i just dislike the cut! but to add on to my aweeesome day,
#11 my hair looks oh so much better today! i didn't even have to wear a hairband! ((:

which kinda makes me wonder why i bought so many hairbands today buttt whatever. (:

what else what else, i think i've said so oh sooo many times in this post but ah.

i hope i don't turn into someone vulgar as i embark on new sem soon new year! apparently i've taken to saying wah lau eh. anyways! according to some fengshui book, 09's a good year for horses. now i can't waaaait! (:

alright, my brain's officially dead and i'm officially tired! i've a new laptop bag yknow! its shiny and pretty right anyways, i'm out. (:

OH HAPPY DAY
MARYMOUNTTT! ((: these were my gifts for the little kids that made me happy happy this holiday (: they made waking up at 7.30 everyday for 2 weeks worth it lo. my gift cute right!! these are erasers and they were cheap and they look like food, how wonderful! ((:


and some kawaiii clips! i koped one, i figured i'll use it more than the eraser, i'll probably eat the eraser or something lo! (:


this is them and aren't they adorable lovely cute amazing wonderful awesomeeee! i'll post up more la, but then i don't know if this is even allowed so one will do! the other teacher was leaving the same day too! she's ms nhu and she's whom i attached myself with. i mean i was her 'helper' WAHA. DAMN CUTE DAMN CUTE, i miss them so ohh ):


HAAHA, since everybody knows what 365 means, this was dinner! (:


the donuts were puny please!


<3


my banner! ((: not bad righhht, an hours' work lo.


preparations!


surprise!


song singing!


CAKE!










picture nice right, i know, must see who's the photographer whaaat. WAHA
HAHAHA, this was like a longg time ago, sec 2 recruitment! fel and i were in charge and we stayed up all night baking and decorating our freebieees, yummy beautiful cookies! (:


daddy's birthday!


cute picture right! ((:


this was also a longgg time ago! this was our last shoot for tv, it was our demo show and we did miming! ((: this was our set which we even missed class for okay!






the crew plus mr foo! (:

ho hum! (: my mac is back so i can finally upload photos. not to mention, i'm feeling not so lazy on this pretty wonderrful day so i'll post after spamming my blog with images. ((:

below are photos from march's fashion show which was pretttyyyy long ago but when i discovered them just somee time ago, i knew i had to post em up because looking at these photos brought back whooosh many memories and made me miss bv alot. then la. i see all of them alot more often now! cause big show coming up lo! ((:


mannequin-eys!


pretty pretty bouquet, if i was a cow i'd be more than happy to eat it up. WAHA (:


before the show, fong fong! ((:


the three of us, fong fong me and colin!


whilst preparing the songs (:




WAHA


after show party! YAY US! (:




we got into a 'fight' because of..i can't even remember! (:




but i remember both husband and wife bullied me. WAHA


YAYYY. i feel oh so insecure without my mac and no collection date )):

anyways! you know whaaat, roti prata really helps the digestion system. WAHA ((:

so, we're down to the last day of holidays officially but i've still got one more day because there's no school on mondays! and am i oh so grateful because trust me, i'm so unprepared to start school ): i haven't printed anything, i haven't packed anything. gahh.

but i bought pencil boxes a notebook and a 09diary yesterday! just for fun. ((: cause trust me, i doubt i need any of it, maybe the notebook and eventually the diary. but come on, you never know when you need something! (: plus half of it was free somewhat.

i told myself i wouldn't update till i have pictures and my mac back but i couldn't resist. there're oh so many things to say!

the past few days have been omgggg. work's exhausting still but fun in a saddistic way at times, and i'm going to try my bestest to go back every friday hopefully sunday too to help out! and then there was camp which was i don't know, it could have been alot alot better la but i enjoyed it for what it was. cheers were fun and i made new friends lo, and for that i'm somewhat grateful. but during camp, i thought alot about how some older people can make friends oh so easily with those younger than them, but for me, that felt like an oddity and an awkward thing during camp. oh gahh. age is but a number horr. it should be.

then there was bestfriend's birthday! ((: which was yesterday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND! ((: so aye, dinner got cancelled because she caught some virus which was thankfully not suspected dengue but nonetheless, recess friends went over and even though our catch up was short i'm glad everyone could take some time out to get together! WHEEE. there's just this special something that makes me adore recess friends oh so much yknow yknow. (: and yes! if it all goes well, recess friends will be going on a holiday together! a first! YAY YAY. but its not complete recess friends la, but we'll see, come what may! (:

now for rants of a whole load of other things,
#1 i've been having rashes and its pissing me off because i feel so unclean! ): i still remember once upon a time when i itched so much i thought i was going to die. damn my sensitive skin. GAHHH. )):
#2 i hate my new haircut. and its the ultimate hate. although i'm not sure if i hate it more than the long short one or less. i think i somewhat hate it more. ):
#3 i've been crazily short tempered recently. and its not pms. my mommy claims it hormones but we can't always blame bad moods on hormones right? but i'm abit freaked because when you're short tempered you're bound to shoot yourself in the foot. and i know i've definitely had a number of accidents already. ): if only you believe me from the bottom bottom of my butt that i mean none of it. i really want to be a good person can. )):
#4 i've been thinking of all the unknowns and trust me, i'm damn freaking scared ): i don't want to move forward anymore, but i know i can't not. ):
#5 i just realised how much i've been losing these past few weeks, months, years.
#6 i think the worst worst feeling in the whole wide world is insecurity. eckk.
#7 how long more is my journey? i'm tired )):

its just another day, oh oh, and how could i forget to mention, i had my best session number2 on friday! (: i think we still have it, its just hidden covered deep in grit grime laziness and lack of passion/drive/motivation blahblah (:

sleepy.

BOOM DA DA AH HAH! i'm back and yet again, i feel so exhausted, it feels like i'd just fought a battle ):

sooo, its down to the last week of holidays. and i can't believe i'm going to spend it like such. GAHH. ah well, ah well.

i just thought it would be good to blog today although now i find myself with nothing to say. hmmmm.

people change don't they. and scarily fast. ):

i'd sent my mac for servicing and bleah, it feels funny now using my vaio for something other than the uploading of photos. and thats the good news! (: i've got photooos but hurr, i can't upload them till i get back my mac.

i'm so tired so tired. on a side note, i'm pretty freaked out by how i can't seem to get enough of shopping these days. buy buy buy. eckkkk.

ohhhh, i went for yoga on saturday and dang, i didn't know it could be so physically challenging. never am i going to think that stretching is easy, its so not ah ah.

i can't wait to drive! ((:

right, tmr's gna be a long long day and my feet hurts so till my mac gets back. (:

365 DAYS

K: kuek
M: moose!
N: nicole
P: peiying
R: rebecca


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