omggwashh! A+ for socpsyh presentation, say yay! (: (: i feel immensely proud of ourselves even though its honestly unexpected! blahh. (: but overall grade's C+ so i'm kindaa sad. bleh. ): nonetheless, we should celebrate sissy and sammiee! (:

cheap things just say byebye ):

hongkong cafe yesterday! HEAVEN PLEASEE. melts. (: we ate so much i think i might've died. and i dont remember job interviews being so easy peasy can. blegh. (:

NEW GIRL! hoho. (:

i've been sleeping alot. ): but its good i supposee. i feel better. (:

i love it when i get lifts to schoool! waha. (:

i'm starting to stay away. oh no oh no, not just one week away. ):

i'm kindaa like afraid of many many things. HELL WEEK'S OVER! (: next week's slack plusplus its second last week of school everybody say yay! (: i don't even want to look at the deadlines all due next next friday. bahh.

i'm feeling super wuper insecure about this. i wished i said no. ): be safe, be safe, come back to me safe eh. ): oh trust. blah.

CAST AWAY the feeling's back, of waking up and feeling like shit such that all you want to do is crawl back into bed and hopefully die and stay there forever. ): aiyah. its actually just dread, a shitload of it. ): there's nothing to look forward to anymore. ): its oh so hard to keep going, to stay happy and positive and upbeat and excited and blahblah. i don't remember decembers being like this. ):

aaron aziz carried jack! he's officially famous! hoho! (:

it rockkks wishing prettygirls happy birthday. they reply with lots of love. WAHA (:

impromptu speech was bullshit lo. i was hoping for something superstition related and i suppose i got my wish somewhat. my topic was: is witchcraft cool? mmm. (: anyhows! if i were(?) a witch, i'll turn all irritating people into purplee dust bunnies with warts! BLEGH. omgwashh. i'm turing into sucha bitch. stabs.

if only emo songs make the world go round. blah.

i miss, i miss, aiyah, somethang. come baaack.

http://new.photos.yahoo.com/mustard2003seed/album
CONCAMP PHOTOS! (: (:


this was our lunch order :D


):


moral of the story is, don't invest in pirated anything. ): and if you can't see, it actually says sony on the outside but's samsung on the inside! oh thumbie you break my heart. ):


and as usual, sammie comes up with something to make my day. :D as they say: a picture speaks a thousand words. in this case, just three: SAMMIE'S SECRETLY KINKY! (:

I COULD paragraph outlines is killing me. ): but radio commercial was fun! magazines are terrrificc inspiration. (: but fun doesn't equate to good results so i worry. blegh. ): and there's impromptu speech tmr! i'm shit scared lo! ):

ayee. recess friends gathering was awesommeeeest! (: i lubb our gatherings - they are always fun fun fun please! (: i absolutely can't wait for our mahjong stayover despite there being school the next day. ): and christmas! HOHO! (: pish posh, alas, staying out late with the bffs rockkked most. (: the feeling of having the both of them near me again was woahh. (: LOVE LOVE LOVEE (: and nicolelow's funny shit. she was superwuper paranoid about coming home late! she was so scared she made me scared lah! WAHA. (:

and yesterday was double awesomeest! (: (: we surprise celebrated perry's birthday too. (:

OHH. i've got a blueblack! yeckk ): and my toothache's actually an ulcer. WAHAHA. (: plusplus, i'm starting to get headaches. this stinks. ):

hopefully things will be okay now eh. whatever okay is. ):


the two buckets of roses that still makes me happy even though i'm left with twenty stalks. pooo.


starbucks! <3




the bffs (:


she's THE BOMB! (:




the following all took place when nicolelow went to pee! :D








i lubb this picture best! (:


and she claimed we looked like retards from the window


but we still continued and made her join in. WAHAHA (:




gahh. i love them so! (: nothing can beat bestfriends. (:


except perhaps maybe recess friends? (:


airport is the LOVE! (:


even though its dark (:


and i say, take me away! ):




nothings says birthday like surprise! (:








magic mel had alot to say about this photo WHAHAHA.


and this! :D


but aye! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY PPPPPY! (:

EVER EVER AFTER in this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness,
that brings me to my knees

school has been zonked! it felt funny coming to school after not touching schoolwork for the ENTIRE weekend. i didn't even access MEL lah. GAHH. but yeppp.

after all the sadness and are-you-okays, i was reminded of thursday's writcom tutorial and sammie's retardness! HAHA. (: (refer to picture below! (:) i love you mooooosee. plenty plenty! and i know you'll miss me if i go to canada lah. you don't have to lie. HAHAHA :D

thanks casey tooo! (: for making me feel better with the boys are stupid, throw rocks at them. HAHA. (: MUCH THANKS IDIOT. (:

i like worn out shoes, you like high heels
and fantasies, but i'm whats real
i guess you could say the shoe don't fit

i suppose there's alot to be happy about! (: RECESS FRIENDS GATHERING TONIGHT! (: i know i keep saying how there's gathering today blahblahblah but i haven't been for any! suckks right! but tonight! come what may, i'm going to be at starbucks! HAHA (:

WE'RE ON WEEK7! SAY YAY! SAY DOUBLE YAY! (: two more weeks! TWO MORE. i can do with two more days of lectures and two more days of each tutorial. WHEE (: but before that, there's a mountain of work to work through. ): ): ):

dumb people with facebook keep playing facebook games during lectures! dang. ):

maybe i'm from venus, you're from mars
my imperfections are what they are
i guess one of us must deal with it

confirmation yesterday! (: i sat upstairs with everybody and now i kinda like regret lah! should have sat downstairs! ): super wuper sad pleaseee! i missed everything! ): plusplus because gift giving was so hectic i didnt get to admire all the pretty people! ): but aiyah. i hope the confirmands had a good ceremony! (: they were super wuper kawaaaii singing power of your love! (: if only things could be somewhat different! blah.

if you love me you sure show it strange
is there anything that you wouldn't change
i can't be your paper doll

i'm sorry mommy for being so rude and for arguing with you yesterday. but i hated what you were doing. ): i sorry guys for setting such a terrible werrible example. i'm sorry daddy - you prolly felt like smacking me. ):

the tears simply made me more exhausted. alas, enough's enough. crying's for babies! blegh.

its supposed to be happy place - its supposed to be where people find comfort. but its the place that's making me plenty sad. ): why can't yall just be happy people! why there. omgwashh. the betrayal. ):

just stop and understand.

i've got the terrible-est tooothache. yeck.


if you cannot see properly. its actually our conversation. HAHAHA.
yours truly: 'her phone rings in every class'
sammiee the moron: 'no one likes me'
yours truly: 'emo shit!'
sammiee the moron: 'i want to be grass'
yours truly: i added exclaimation marks to emo shit and wrote 'grow up' plus 'i want to be a sex bomb HAHA'
IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LAH. i died when i saw the i want to be grass part. HAHAHAHAHA. emo shit eh she! BLEGHH. (: but she makes me delirously happy. wheee (:


bea-utiful roses! (: i've got like two pails at home. WAHA. i've never owned so many many roses before! melts. (:


and these were in the bin ):


sammie decided to cheer herself up by chopping off her hair so i decided that camwhoring was in order but that nehneh was totally being unattentive. BLEGH. (: and mel's having a bad hair day thus the cap and pleats which turned out oh so kawaaaaiii (double blegh!) so i conclude that i'm the one with the fuglieeeest hair! ):


look at sammie! just look at her! blegh! (: AND MEL SAID THE FWORD PLENTY TIMES ON THE WAY TO THE LIBRARY! TSKK. (:


and alas sammiee pays attention! HAHA (: they've been calling me a bitch. what nehnehs! blegh! (:


<3

BEAUTIFUL RELEASE i hate how i keep finding reasons to be sad and reasons to blame others for all the misery. ):

i'm so fucking tired of all the bullshit. ): how is this my fault. ): i don't see why you should be behaving so fucking hurting-ly. ): BGAHH. ): aren't we worth much more than this? don't you think you're being fucking unfair. don't you see that you mean alot to me despite whatever shit is happening. ):

what's reality?

i'm going to find other sources of support, i'm going to force myself to be strong and i'm going to be happy. (: and i want more than the whole world for you to be happy too. ):

i don't even feel like completing my confirmation presents. ): i shouldn't have gone out to play all day yesterday. ): eh, not exactly play lah. but i should have been at home eating dinner with my family, doing my homework. this 'there's always tomorrow' thing is going to kill me someday. BLEGH. but i had a good night nonetheless. (: it was a superwuper small gathering and we didn't exactly drink much but i was really happy - i ate ALOT. (: if only alcohol could make me high i would have gotten shit drunk just to escape for one night so that it wouldn't hurt so much just for ONE night. ): but alcohol makes me sad so dang. i was quiet for once the entire night or maybe because my get-high partner wasn't around. HAHA (: but still! it was a subdued night minus the water parade. oh. i heard a polar bear story and one day when i get rid of my fear for fluffy animals i'm going to love animals instead.

thanks plenty for the roses. (: the gesture meant alot to me. especially the money. yall didn't have to. ): i don't even know why i sometimes niao so much. HAHA aye. its hard to get anyone else to understand but i honestly thank god for giving me a family outside my family to see me through teenagehood. (: spectacularly amazing. GAHH. (: and we took a family picture! HOHO. (:

its love (:

i'm afraid, thats why i keep holding back. but its hurting. ):

what more can i say? ):

who will follow me wherever i go, love me whoever i am, forgive me whatever i do, catch me however i fall, shelter me, share with me, laugh with me, dance with me, cry with me, eat with me, play with me, ever more? bah.

stop blaming me. ):

i wna be like superman.

so much more, special one.

TAKE ME AWAY this was not your dream but you always believed in me

KUEK'S BACK! OMGWASHHH everybody say YAY! (: so the surprise went like this - after 9pm show last night i went to bathe before antm started and when i came back down the stairs, i saw two pairs of feet! i thought one of them was mommy's but then the other pair had painted toenails! so i was wondering which freak was that lah. so i walked down and stopped at the foot of the stairs and guess who i saw? i saw my two *^(!%#%)$*%(!$ best friends watching TV. i honestly honestly thought i was dreaming okay! and then my brain clicked that annoying jessica kuek who was supposed to be back on MONDAY was back. ON THURSDAY. sitting on MY sofa. watching MY tv. hugging MY laptop. i freaked out please! BUT WHEEEE! (: it was an awesomeeest surprise! (: my sucky, sad evening wasn't sucky or sad anymore lo! (: WOOTS. apparently nerissa knew and wanted to give us a surprise at dinner - but i didn't go for dinner. ): BUT AWWW. i love them so! (: HAPPY HAPPY! (: i'm looking forward to the next 3months please. (:

and kuek insisted we camwhore :D


<3


nicole low's favourite effect but she can't even be seen lah! morons. HAHAHHA. (:


my favourite effect! (:


kuek hates this photo but i love it. i think its the best please! HAHAHA (:


neither paris or rome

i wished it was the holidays ):

CAUSE OBVIOUSLY i know who i want to take me home

speech was awesomeest today (: we played some silly game (which we won! YAY! (:) and then we had our practice speech (which really sucked because i totally last minute-ly prepared it ):) afterwhich! we had some sort of mini reflection thingything! (: it was a small simple activity but it really struck me with a mountain of memories! memories, some of which i was already forgetting. ):

but aiyah. in other words, i thought alot. its hard to explain the odd tingly remembering feeling (: it was a good activity. (: I WNA BE THREEE. (:

and its amazing how you can love someone so so so much that they're the one you talk about when asked what makes you happy but the feeling isn't reciprocated. ): or so at least it feels that way lah. ):

i'm confused as to whats going to happen from here. but everything's pointing to a hard tough torturous new year and i'm shit scared ): reallyreally. BIG SIGHH. ): mmm, the two duds are doing so badly in school i don't even want to think how mommy's feeling. ): its like blow after blow. ): plusplus, i haven't been home for long this entire week i'm starting to feel the guilt biggg time. ): i wished i knew how to fix things and make everything better. ): but then temptation comes knocking and blahblahblah. its a vicious thing. ):

RECESS FRIENDS DINNER TONIGHT! (:

i managed to talk to laoshi last night and she still rockkks. (: she's hilariously cute. (: and its nice to know that someone loves you so. it must be a teacher student thing. HAHA. (: i'm going to hold on dearly to the what-is-yours-is-yours story. thanks laoshi (: from the bottom of my heart, wo ai ni. (:

AYE. what to say neh. i shall be strong! (:

i want to be QUEEEEN (: oh boy. check out the i want-s man. (:

i bought confirmation presents already! WHEEE (: but i'm not looking forward to doing 16 cards ): i don't see time on my side lah. BLAH. but i shall make time somewhat, mmm. OHH. and the feeling of buying cheap roses rockkks. (:

today's zonked day. ): i superwuper sleeepy. ):

CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS THURSDAY!? i can't (:

wokay. back to whatever.

kuek's coming back on monday! (:

wait wait wait, wait your backside ah wait. we learnt from speech's poem today that - children are genius-es until the go to school WAHA. (:

QUEEN WATERMELON welcome to the world of major camwhoring worrrxss. HHAHAHA. <3


she makes school happy. (:


we like eating icecream-yogurt and camwhoring tgt (:


biggg faaaat smellllyyy mooseeey bitch (:








this was lecture day - of which the whole day i was in absolute agonyy. ): but we ended up taking 22 photos. whooooops! (: this's just 1. i'm too lazy to post the rest. plusplus they were quite the fugly. HAHAHHA (:


and then it begins all over again! (:


we were supposed to be doing our i-can't-remember-what. i just remember giggling alot. HAHAHA (:


everybody just keep your eyes on chee. WAHAHA (:




amazing what socpsyh teaches you. up yours. (:


the end! (:

K: kuek
M: moose!
N: nicole
P: peiying
R: rebecca


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