pure magic.

y'all have been amazing, thank you. either, deep concern or fresh gossip. i guess betrayal is worth trading for a moments contentment.

tomorrow's judgement day and eeks, i hate this suspense.

i don't believe the picking up story anymore! i miss moose, py, ali, noey, denis, dianne, cheryl, hil-tan! monkeys that made the last days of school, beautiful. we can't go back anymore can we. but the fun i'd had, that feeling i doubt i would experience EVER again. afterall, its soon to be new school, new mates, new experiences. (: point being, i love you girlies. and i sorry about yesterday neh! its pretty hard for constantly busy people to meet up huh. hah!

i'm too lazy to keep up with you, and you don't have a habit of looking back. say still, wouldn't we drift? whats up with you now. i don't know anymore.

i've been lost in my own world, oh yes.

there're too many sides to people, too many sides to me.

i can't carry through! stop this competition, let me hide, believe this uglyness isn't true.

ROCKY WATERS changes, i could deal with em.

so many things have taken place simultaneously i don't know where to start, how to go on. the sudden declarations, the sudden warnings, the sudden advancements, the sudden intimacy, the sudden betrayal, the sudden tension, the sudden departure, the sudden friendship, the sudden annoucement. everything that shouldn't have taken place, have taken place. why so!

i wish i can never go back, but knowing me, i will, always will. why can't i make choices of my own. so many people i've hurt on my way on but yet i still stubbornly behave the way i do.

saturday was disgusting, i was totally put off by my behaviour. but whats done is done. i'm sorry! ): sunday was guilt-eating. i ate and ate and ate and at the end of the day, i went home upset and full of bloody regrets. i washed my hair! i knew, one of the superstitions would just fall through. :D monday, that was yesterday! was waaay better. but hey, the good's never lasting. the party was fun fun fun, the satay fanning, tangyuan eating, drinks drinking, blackjack rolling. :D i made money! after losing them previously. pfft. but i'm happy. its a good reality escape. but it wouldn't last long. i'll fall through, i know it. thursday! (:

today, there's to be family dinner. and HOPEFULLY, we'll have a smashing time.

i've stopped hoping.

MISFIT. SLEEPOVER AT SHANGS. (:
(birthday treat from rebecca's mom!)





(this is result of one night on the floor, i look funny!)




I NEED LOVE. F IT. ):

results were hmm. like so. not desired but more than deserved. (: so i'm thankful, very much so. there're alot of choices in terms of poly courses. so its cj versus all the name-attractive poly courses. i don't know what to do! thinking has made me sick. weighing my options and deciding my future is nauseating indeed. my gaad. i'll be hating every minute till wednesday. and i'm fickle on top of it all. poop.

kuek's sad! and i'm sad for her! hmm. loneliness kills, doesn't it.

today was harder than most. the eucharist never meant so much before. all this sorrow! i'm going to be a sad kid. DANG.

priscilla mama? :D

SABBATH i've got mixed feelings about returning back to school tomorrow.

i've changed, even more so you. i'm starting to like it there, i've became stronger even though further.

i'm sorry. i cannot bear these burdens anymore.

FOREVERMORE i've been fluctuating in many areas of my life, and the emotions are killing me. its hard to do everything you need to do to maintain smtg, when you're stuck in a shop during the better hours of the day. i think i lost my guitar shirt, and the fustration of not being able to find it is killing me. plus these monetary problems, i'm having. sheeesh, i need to learn how to control my finances, control! roar.

my heart hurts. ): mrs low, mrs low, i gathered everyone heard the news. she must be heartsick and beyond. ):

what do i do now? hmm. i've been so upset since december, every sunday mass is a rollercoaster. i cannot remember ever leaving the hall with dry eyes. fwah, when did i become so weak? ): I HAD A SCARY DREAM LAST NIGHT!

troubles, who puts an end to them? i'm in the mood to do MASSIVE spring clean. but! smtg's holding me back. dang.

okay, i'm not in the right state of mind anymore. till friday. its excel or crash. shit.

BEAUTIFUL DREAMER

K: kuek
M: moose!
N: nicole
P: peiying
R: rebecca


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