hmmm, school stuff shopping would be what i'd call a total flop. wasn't really in the mood to walk around as i was really sleepy. sorry guys! ): but at least we've found our school shoes. although i'm not sure if i wna get them yet. we're all getting the same. well, i like it. the other two are getting it cause i'm getting it?! haha. i'm just self-praising myself. the shoe just happened to be the nicest that all. at least i think thats why. haha. its from oceanpacific by the way. yup.

so i came home and immediately fell asleep. haha. all the running about these past few days is finally getting to me. i'm too busy with useless stuff i'm telling you. i'm so not setting my pirorities straight. oh wells. i've only got this two months to really play, next year aint no joke. i've really really gotta mug hard. but still! i can tell my mom is really disappointed with me. ): she knows i'm just giving excuses, which by the way, is true. haha. all this busy shit is just so that i wouldn't feel so guilty when i'm asked why i didnt study during term break! hah. :D

oh oh, jessica got me this minnie mouse pen from hk disneyland. oh my. its pretty expensive for a pen if you'd ask me. but thanks alot love! its real pretty pretty! (((:

hmmm, i can't wait for new year! woots. this year's new year was shit. i didn't even celebrate! gosh. but this year's different! i think we're either gna join some countdown party or go to some hotel's lounge to have our own countdown. yup!
excited excited!

going out with the churchys tmr. i predict that we're gna just stone the day away. like usual. haha. cynthia's coming back by the way, on sunday. yupp.

theres nothing really much to add actually. just that i'm really tired! haha. i said that like don't know how many gazillion times already. ooo, and its time for dinner. so yup! till tmr, when i shall get down to writing my new year resolutions! i should rewind back and read this year's first january's blog post, to see if i did accomplish my resolutions actually. hmmm, i think i will. till then. chao!

its amazing how you can make me so happy, when you not even real. its amazing how you matter so much to me, even when you do not know my name. its amazing how i'd do anything for you, when i just met you yesterday. its amazing how your smile, can light up my days. its amazing how your eyes speak a thousand words that only you and i understand. its amazing how you could feel my sorrow, my pain even when we're miles apart. its amazing how god brought you into my life, even though you're not mine to keep. i still love you, all the same.



/make things simple again.


theres actually really nothing much to blog about. but i'm like really bored now. so why not. blogging is meant to keep me entertained anyways. haha. we're pretty much done with the funeral, so yup. after tomorrow, everything's gna be official. and boy am i gna miss her, her smell, her voice, her touch, her smile, her everything! )))):

next year's gna be a pretty different year altogether. new changes, new beginnings. and i cant wait for it to come quick. although next year is the year where i'm sure i'm gna be like stressed out studying for o's and shit like that, i'm welcoming it with open arms. haha. hmmm, its time to touch the books. and ugh, i'm not even done with my homework yet! rahhh.

school's reopening! i havent really registered in my head that we're gna have a totally new system. but yes, i'm excited! haha. gna get school stuff tmr with nicole. and boy am i gna be a HUGEEE lamppost. ooo, i think i've put on weight btw. haha.

gna see aunty alice later. ooo, yes! and i think that this passing of has reaally brought the family closer ONE step. so i'm glad. really. and i think after the whole christmas episode, everyone's becoming more understanding. oh yeah. and we can never all three be happy. there'll always be one upset one, i realised. whyy?! its so annoyingly upsetting. haha.

i'm sleeepy. have been sleeping late and waking early. and the consequences can be seen by all the disgusting pimples! haha. ): oh yes, took my i/c photo today! eeeks. its reaally ugly. i'm so not photogenic. annoying shit. haha. but oh wells.
till then.


/i've missed the good ol days.

i'm really really really bored now. i should be doing smtg. but i'm not. i feel as if i'm wasting my day away! rahhh. ):

it was a really lousy lousy day yesterday. and i'm sorry for spoiling it for everyone. but yes. why cant you just understand that leaving me alone at that time would be best. i do not want you to lie to me just so that i'll be happy. i do not need your obviously not sincere consolation. i cannot be unhappy and just at your word give you a really big happy smile okay. i'm not so hypocritical. not everybody is like you. and if you cant forgive me than forget it. i'm only fifteen. i make mistakes, i'm allowed to be childish and throw my silly tantrums. so just leave me alone. i'm sorry if i wasnt as understanding, but admit it. you all forgot.



/i've never stopped loving you but you've never loved me true.


MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL. (:

and happy happy birthday to me.


/my heartbreaker what a lousy christmas this year's gna bring. and honestly speaking its been a really really bad year so far. alot of shit things happened, and really. i cant wait for all this to end. i'm telling you, 2005 must be like cursed or smtg. hahah. but as they say, theres always a rainbow after a thunderstorm. or smtg like that. and in someways i suppose its true. i've been blessed with alot more good things. i've just gotta look on the bright side of life. right? haha.

well, smtg really tragic happened yesterday. and it hit me pretty badly maybe cause its the first passing of i've ever witness and one so close to home. and maybe how, i didnt get to say goodbye, how i never got to cherish her or tell her i love her or simply just how she suffered and yeah, her pain we were not capable of putting her out of and how she had to do it herself. it wasnt as easy to accept i suppose. and truthfully, i was pretty traumatised. but yeah. ):

it isnt easy, to see a loved one lying there oh so peacefully while you are left alone to carry the burden of going on without her.
it isnt easy, to see a loved one go before you even got to tell her how much you love her or before you got to say goodbye, or even before you could put her fearful heart to rest by letting her know, she's going on to a better place while we here on earth, will always always remember her and that she will never ever be alone or was ever that burden she always thought she was.
but i know he will watch over her. keep her safe and happy, dear father. love her.

rest in peace mahchou, i love you.

merry christmas eve, one and all. for tomorrow our saviour shall be brought to earth to take away our pain and wash away our sins.


carolling yesterday was fun,
i suppose.
haha. it was okay la.
but i'm still not in that
christmasy mood.
oh wait, if i remember correctly,
i've never been in that mood.
haha.
okay, that sounded loseric.
ignore mee!

hmmm, this christmas is gna
be pretty different in a way.
like how i got gifts.
i've never really bought presents
for people before.
hahah.
just never had that tradition
of doing so.
and its so stressful LAA.
ugh.
i need to wrap everything by today
and hopefully, nothing
goes wrong.
oh wait, smtg already did.
oh wells. nothing more, please?
haha.

eyy, theres midnight mass.
which hopefully, will be fun.
haha.
mass, fun? hmmm.
(((:
and theres the party after,
which i dont know if i wna
go too yet.
and then, oh ya!
theres no christmas lunch for one.
but theres christmas eve
dinner, with turkeys and the works.
haha.
and yupp.
the sleepover in the evening.
theres actually nicolette's
christmas open house.
but rahh. i cant go!
haha.
see, noelle! the sacrifices i've
made for you.
hahaha.
:D

egh. i've got so many things
to do today.
and to think i actually woke
up late somemore.
i'm so disappointed in myself.
but yes. haha.
i should run.
chao.

was this the beginning to some good,
or the beginning to a heartbreak.
i need to get you out of my head.
but i'm not ready to let you go, just yet.

can you believe it?!
its december 23rd ALREADY.
rahh.

/where are you?

egh. i think i woke up
on the wrong side of
bed cause i woke up
feeling pretty shit.
):

anyhow, my freaking
right eye is STILL swollen.
and it sucks.
):
its been swollen since
monday!
and it hurts shit.
rahhh.

its christmas shopping
day today.
and i'm feeling so lazy
i really don't feel like
going out and hunting
for presents for people.
cause its obviously not as
easy as it looks!
ahah.
:D
but yes. i can do this!

eh, its ms kuek's birthday
todaay!
so yup,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
whereever you are in hk,
hope youre having fun.
and my call on sunday.
if not i'm gna slap you
upside down.
hahah.
righht.
i'm lying.
but yup.
enjoy your day without me,
no matter how highly
impossible that is.
you can do it!
haah.
((((:
lovelove!
<3

ho, it's carolling tmr.
hopefully the bloody
swell will be gone by
then.
so yes, till then!

and noellee you neh.
i linked her.
HAH.
you suck and stop bullying me!
hahah.
if not, i tell my mommy.
:D
and i'm still DEEPLY HURT
that youre abandoning me
for mass okay.
hmph.
))):
HURT.





/what makes the world go round?



gotta leave for carolling soon.
but yup.
went for penitentialservice
today.
what can i say.
haha.
i clean and all prepared for
christmas.
i went prepared okay.
wrote out my sins and memorised
my act of contrition!
:D
sounds so loseric la.
but the other time i was
so unprepared i was super
freaked out.
haha.
i was practically shaking while
i went up to say my sins and all.
SIGH.
i'm such a loser.

anyways! helped out with
churchdeco after.
but yes, i did nothing but
bum around la!
laughed loads though.
(((:
so yup.

christmas is like in, 5 days.
excited excited.
and NOELLEEE.
go for mass with MEE.
i insist.
ahah.
you broke my heart alot
of times already la.
and its my birthday.
be nice.
HA.
you can break my heart
after mass.
:D

ehh, gotta complete
my christmas shopping
by tmr and i'm left with the
three most important
presents la.
so hopefully, everything
goes well.
hopefully.
rahhh.

i really do not know who
to trust anymore.
why is everything happening
at the same time.
this sucks.
):
but yes, i'm MUST understand
that everybody has a life of
their own.
i must.
just dont let me down now,
not when i need you.

i wna meet somebody perfect.
but then again, who is?
are you?
i guess it all depends on one's
own way of seeing things.
i mean, if you think youre perfect
who else is to say youre not?
and somebody who's perfect to me,
might be imperfect to you.
so yes.
rahh.
see how i complicate things?
hahah.

anyways, i'm suddenly in a
pretty christmasy mood.
hohoho.
((((:



/dont know where this's heading.

ayes. the skin kinda
dont flow, dont you think?
haha.
ohwells.
the other one was just too blue.

the computer's lagging!
my sentence appears only after
i finish typing.
hah.

i failed miserably in taking
a morning nap today.
my back hurts.
oh yes.
i'm burnt, chaotak.
and the mark is egh. hideous!
hahah.
so i cant really sleep properly.
sigh.
and to think we werent even
suntanning.
but its been really hot recently though.
like REALLY hot.
theres goes any hope of
it snowing around here.
SIGH.
hahah.

hmmm. christmas is in 7 days!
wooots.
can't wait la.
heh.
i'm not done with my gifts yet.
i can so picture myself
rushing about last minute
getting everything ready.
haha.
i'm such a lastminute person.
tskkk.
can't take this.
but ohwells.
at least, things get done.
:D

i'm craving for chocolatee!
haah.
i wanna go for the chocolate
buffet at fullerton.
PAAMMY.
hahha.

something really incredulous
happened today.
and to say i'm not over the moon
would be a lie.
a BIG FAT lie.
haha.
but after thinking it through,
i'm kind of not so sure anymore.
ugh.
perhaps i shouldn't
think so much.
or even better, not think at all!
haha.
and i'm not even thinking
about stuff that's actually
useful.
i think about all sorts of
nonsensical nonsense,
which simply complicates
my life.
oh, i suck.
SIGH.
):

i mean, after all my prayers
and wishes and whatnots.
he answered my prayer.
like omg.
he answered my prayer!
hahaha.
i was elated.
but yet i do not know if
its a good thing or not.
i mean.
rahh.
i don't know.
):
what should i doooo?
i realllyy do not want to
screw this up.
I MEAN.
ONE YEAR.
one whole frickin year.
hahaha.
we'll just see how things go.
oh, i need somebody to talk too.

till then!
(:


/roundabouts


i've just realised how
stressful christmas
shopping can get.
i mean. honestly.
no wonder, i never
picked up the habit
of buying gifts.
this is going to be
the last year la k.
i shall just accept next.
hhaha.
what! it is my birthday.
i've got an excuse.
hhaha.
kidding kidding.
(:

i really don't know anymore.
perhaps we all just don't click.
cause we definately,
cannot seem to be able
to let go of our differences
and learn to care for one another
and not be so frickin consumed by
our own selfish thoughts.
i'm so pissed at all these
childish tantrums.
uggh.
like come on, grow up already.

i cannot stand being ignored.
and i'm currently in that
situation where somebody
who cares is ignoring me.
oh how i hate that.
rahh.

somehow, i've got the
feeling that my birthday
this year is gonna reaally
suck.
i mean, come on.
i don't even think i'm gonna
have a cake.
hhaha. honestly!
cake, somebody?
and i've just realised something!
i've cried every year on my birthday.
hhaha.
i'm like really easily provoked
on my birthday.
so i cry easily.
so yes, dont piss me off please.
i don't really feel like
crying this year.
i had enough.
i'm so easily stressed,
i cant stand myself.
hhaha.

i'm feeling like really unloved now.
love, somebody?
hhaha.

sigh. i'm so moody today.
don't talk to me.
i'm trying reaally hard
to be happier.
its not really working.
why?



/make it better, please?

i'm not really in the mood
to blog.
but yes.
was my last day today.
and noelle! i got thee letters.
(:

this is like super sad please.
just when everything was
starting to fall into place
nicely, this gotta happen.
upset la.
oh wells, everybody's gotta
say goodbye one day.
its just that, going there
somehow makes me happy.
am i not ready to lose that.
yet.
hhaha.
i mean, the reason i chose
the childcare and stuck with
it even when the alot of
problems surfaced in the
beginning was because i really liked
working with kids. but yes,
this is another thing altogether.
at least i had fun today!
(:
come to think of it.
it has been pretty enjoyable
all-round.
i mean, theres never one
day the same.
and i've learnt alot every single
day i've been there.
i should be more than happy.
and i am, don't get me wrong.
hopefully, i'll remember every
single thing though.
for only memories i'm left with.
):
and i'm pretty bad at memories.
i always will somehow twist my
memories about.
such a loser. yes i know.
hahah.
and theodore stole my first kiss LA!
i thought he was going to kiss
my cheek can.
that nehneh. sob. hahah.
but yesh. i got loads of kisses
today!
XD
after blackmailing them that is.
heh.
i got to see AJ before i left too!
wheee.
from afar that is. hahah.
gonna miss all of them like reaaally
badly please!
i've been going since october can.
think of all the attachments i've
already made! sigh.
it has become sort of a part of my
holidays kind of thing.
and all i can say is 'what a holiday!'
(:
ayes.
i'm nostalgic ALREADY.
hhaha.
thank god fer pictures.
REMEMBER ME PLEASE, young ones.
:D
sigh, this sucks.

walked home from amk today!
took like extra long to
get home though.
cause i was walking
at snail speed. hhah.
but i felt reaallyy good after that,
mentally and physically.
walking is pretty therapeutic.
but ugh. i just had like cadbury.
hahah. so yes, nevermind me.

went christmas shopping yesterday!
candy empire cheated my money la k.
i should learn never to get
carried away with goodlooking stuff.
do NOT judge a book by its cover.
hhaha.
dots.

its christmas next week!
like oh-so-fast dont you think?!
hmmm.
well, hohoho. nothing gets me in
the christmas mood like
all those christmas movies
they screen.
sigh. they all always look
so freaking christmas-ey,
i'm jealous.
hhaha.

MY DEAR MS KUEK is leaving
for hk tomorrow.
miss me kaays.
hhah.
takecare love!
merrymerry christmas!
and i better get your call.
hhaha.
<3
you should try staying
in singapore for
christmas you know.
this long-distance thing.
hhaha.
shakes head.
not going to work.
:D
no matter our differences,
i can't be bothered no more.
life's this short.
nobody's perfect.
at least you make me happy.
hhaha.
lovelove.
bonvoyage!

i should head to bed now.
i'll try to be happier tomorrow.
no more sad things please!
(:
night world.





/nothing about this is real,
so please dont lie to me no more.
prince charming doesn't exist.
does he?
i really don't know anymore.



i can't deal with this, not myself,
not anymore.








ayes, its amazing how
talking to wise people
help make you feel
so much better about yourself.
you get to see things from
alot of different angles.

hhaah.
i can't wait till i'm wise and old.
:D

she's like my godsent angel la.
no matter how upset, or
displeased i am going to class.
i'll somehow tell her whats
bothering me and shit stuff.
and she always help make
me feel better.
she helps me see things i
cant see on my own.
or when i don't understand
how the world works,
she helps me understand and stuff.
oh, what will i do without her.
love much! <3

i feel so enlightened please.
(:
and ive realised how everything
that has happened so far
this month can actually serve
as a good experience.
its all about how you twist things.
dont you think?

i cant wait to be a mother
myself to understand
what my mom is actually
going through.
hhaha.
but that journey's still far off.
so yup.
i'll just have to use the
childcare experiences as
a guideline.
see how everything falls into place.
hmmm.
the wonders of his works.
i'm amazed.
hhaha.
(:

anyhow. i'll just leave
it in his hands.
i trust him to make
things right again.

and i've learnt something
about insensitive and sensitive
people.
but i'm too lazy to explain.
hhaha.
when i'm free la.

till then.



/where were you when i needed you the most?




i hate myself.
):
i cant believe i screwed
up so badly.
tskk.
how could i?
the examiner wasnt even
fierce la.
i was nervous unneccessarily
and for that,
i think i'm going to fail.
ugh.
i hate myself.
i'm gonna cry my eyeballs
out and slap myself upsidedown
if i fail.
honestly.
i cant believe this is happening.
i'm upset.
sigh.

this is going to be i hate
the world including myself
kind of post.
hhaha.
i'm in a prettyy bad mood now.

how can anyone be so
annoying?
how can anyone be so
childish?
how can anyone be so
spiteful that you just want
to stay away even from home.
this sucks la k.

i need to be isolated.
i need time to get things right again.

till then.



/fuck, it wouldnt hurt if you just left me alone



theres always a down
side to this bright
and cherry world.
how oh so true.
dont you think?
(:

anyhow, lets rewind our week!
my week. half a week actually.
hhaha. righht.
wednesday!
oh crap.
i can't remember what i did.
hhaha.
oh yeah. childcare-d!
it was fun-errific but absolutely
tiring.

i'm reaaally gonna miss everything.
the busrides, the walk to school, the KIDS,
the teachers, the school, the patting,
the playing, the giggling, the carrying,
the consoling, the praising, the bullying,
the violations, hahah, the interactions,
the lunching, the awkwardness,
the sight of pee, poop, puke,
the wailings, the kisses! <3>
the absolutely adorable little bundles of mischevious joy!
even down to the houses i pass by every morning!
i'll miss them ALL. <3
):
this sucks.
hhaha.

anywayys. thursday!
childcare-d again. :D
went to eastcoast.
they had a school excursion kind
of thing.
hhaha. wasn't reaally
that fun but it was okay.
the beach looked perfect that
day!
i mean, the weather and all.
(:
i wanted to stay and not leave!
hhaha.
as if that was even possible.
but hey, why not man.
:D
oh yeah. this was also the day
in which i helped someone
wipe their butt and felt
a absolute sense of helplessness
while visiting the toliet
with FOUR three year olds.
hhaha.

carolling at night. was fun la.
not bad, not bad.
got home preetty late though.
konked out like once i touched
my bed la.
was tired, really.

fridaay!
which is today. :D
ehh. childcare-d!
there were reaally little kids today.
so i stayed mainly with the
playgroup.
they are sooo cute.
hah.
played with bubbles and whatnots.
its been long.
i feel like a child again!
ehh. played with the infants.
theres this TEN-MONTH old baby.
he's SO cute.
hhaha.
lovelove!
achievement of the day -
i changed someone's diaper!
hhaah.
:D
can you imagine how useless
i was before this whole
thing started.
i so can.
i'm so disappointed in myself la.
tskkk.
hahaha.
(:

met mummy after.
bought some stuff. eh.
bought like tonnes of food!
i hate going foodshopping
when i'm hungry.
i always overbuy.
hhaha.
met twaee and pamy!
and yeah. uncle jeffery and family.
we had a smallscale and
purely coincidental family gathering.
:D

ayes. two days.
i'm not prepared for this.
what is wrong with me!
):
its time to wake-up.
somebody slap me!
hhaha.

one day left.
i'm gonna appreciate
that ONE day.
i'm gonna have fun
no matter what.
i'm gonna enjoy myself.
i'm gonna smile every
single minute.
i'm gonna be HAPPY
and
i'm gonna treasure every single
memory.
(:

alrights. i'm tired.
night world.

the new skin sucks huh.
but i'm too lazy to
go search for a nice one.
plus, i like the theme.
SO BLUEE.
ayes. how oh so true.
(:



/world peace anybody?





ARE YOU BACK YET, NEH?!
):

wheee. i'm happy today.
or at least, i'm trying
hard to be.
hah.

went for piano in the morning.
was late again.
met one examiner!
my gosh.
he looks freakin fierce la.
):
one week.
and i'm still playing like
a amateur.
sob.
die la.
i shall eat, live, breathe
my piano for the next
6 days!
hhaha.
:D

came home, bummed around.
slept.
even though,
i wasn't even tired.
its easier to sleep.
time passes faster.
dont you think?
hmmm.
and besides. i haven't been
sleeping well.
all these stupid nightmares
have me awake in
the middle of the bloody
night!
):

woke up and did work!
i feel so accomplished.
hhaha.
:D
did so many maths questions la.
but yeah.
i started too late.
and its time to buck up.
see la. its the holidays
and yet i've got like
mounts of pressure upon
my shoulders.
this sucks.
but yes.
i deserve all these nagging.
if not, i'll still be lazing around,
thinking that i've got
all the time in the world.
sigh.

ayes. got to leave for
carolling.
so yes, till then!
(:


/unexplainable attraction


oh, i'm sleepy.
my feet hurts.
the shoe i wore
today sucks la.
i shall only wear it
on days when i'm
gonna walk like realllyy
little.
hhah.

eh. mass today.
its silly to wait like
this.
i shall just watch
how things go
and not take things
so seriously anymore.
yupp.
i'll try. hhaha.

went for the carnival.
it was erms. hhah.
small scale.
bought like tonnes
of food.
correction. it felt as
if we bought anything
that caught our eye!
hhaha.
blah.
had a hard time finishing
it all though.

went to kbox!
wheee. sang loads.
hah. but my voice
is still aokay.
kenji wu rocks la.
he's so cute, talented,
tall and ugh. perfect.
hhaha.
:D

ayes. starawards is on
now. hhaha.

eh. long week ahead!
i'm like out every other
day la.
my mom's gonna kill
me.
rahh.
but its not my fault.
hhaha.
righht.

not everything in life
has to go your way.
remember that.
i can't live up to everybody's
expectations.
i'm no saint.





/carry me




this is hilarious. :D

30 Ways To Have Fun in a Hospital
1. Hijack wheelchairs and speed around the hallways.
2. Get a running start, then tackle people.
3. Wax the floors really well in a wing where there are many old people, and sit yourself down and watch the walkers fly!
4. Get the rolling beds and race them, while the patients are in them.
5. Go to the labor and delivery department, and into a room with a patient, and say "Breathe, breathe, breathe, DON'T BREATHE!"
6. Feed the diabetics lots and lots of sugar.
7. Go to ICU and go up to one of the patients and have a conversation along these lines: "Does this hurt?" "How about now?" "What if I did this?" "What if I hit you with this?" "Would it be bad if I pressed this button?"
8. Go into an operating room and say, "I can take it from here...." (30 seconds later), scream, "EVERYONE DOWN! HE'S GONNA BLOW!"
9. Start a food fight in the cafeteria.
10. Run around yelling, "YOU'RE ALL GONNA DIE! YOU'RE ALL GONNA DIE!"
11. Go "Christmas caroling," only with Adam Sandler songs, or other very disturbing, violent songs.
12. Stand in a doorway with an IV filled with water and spray passing people.
13. Go to the Psychiatric Unit and find something really annoying, (like a buzzer) and buzz it over and over and over again.
14. Turn off the main power switch.
15. Announce over the loudspeakers: "Everyone down! It's an air raid!"
16. That works for bomb scares, too.
17. Start a war between all the patients and the nurses, and chase the nurses with syringes.
18. Play football with the babies.
19. Flick the lights on and off in sleeping patients' rooms.
20. Go into another patient's room and page the nurse. Run away. Do it again, and again, and again.
21. Tell people there's a recreation center on the roof. When they get up there, look around and say, "Oh, it must be in the basement. Sorry."
22. Put a stink bomb in someone's artificial lung.
23. Jump on the beds while people are in them.
24. Find a patient with a remote control bed, steal the remote and wonder aloud, "What would happen if I pressed this button?"
25. Why not try all of the buttons?
26. Stand outside the door of the hospital and tell people it's closed but that it will open tomorrow at 8 am.
27. Steal old peoples' walkers.
28. This also works for anyone on crutches.
29. Take three pigs, and label them 1, 2, and 4. Then let them loose around the hospital. When they find these pigs they will wonder where #3 is, and will continue looking.
30. Hijack an ambulance!!

hmm. we should visit a
hospital soon eh. hhah.

ayes. its lazy day today.
and i feel like climbing
a treee! whee.
:D



/winter wonderland.




i was happy.
now i'm not.
ohwells.
no one stays happy forever.

just came back from seoul.
wheee. i had prawns.
lots and lots of prawns!
hhaha.
i peeled so many with
my chopsticks!
hah.
shall have to master
the art of peeling fast next.
i'm taking waaayy too long.
but still. i'm prouda myself!
:D
laughed loads. mainly with
my brudder. but yeah.
its during times like this,
that he can be really
good company.
hurrr.

erms. childcare in the morning.
ayes! theres this reaaally
cute boy. my gosh.
wish i could kidnap him
or something.
he's superr adorable la!
LOVEEhim!
<3
i'm so gonna miss him please.
he's SO cute.
rahh.
7 more days.
):

other than that.
ive just realised that people
who are nice are never
actually nice.
did you get that?
hhahaa.
i have come to believe
that there isnt anybody
nice in this world.
i've been delusional way
too long now.
reallly. i mean, come on la.
even some priests arent nice.
much less you and me.
ohwells.
life isn't a bed of roses.
is it.
we've got to learn how
to look on the brighter side
of things, always.
yupp.
:D

and yah! first impressions
aren't everything.
in fact, they're nothing at all.
remember that!
hurr.

but yeah.
its thursday todaay! DECEMBER FIRST.
and i woke up feeling extremely
happy.
i wonder why.
but yeah. the feeling's gone
now.
):

oo. how i wished it was cloudy.
i love cloudy days.
and i feel like going kite-flying!
wheee!

i'm not okay.
):
till tomorrow.



/the feelings never last forever



and yes. SHIFU!
shall call you soon.
my maths results lies in
your hands k.
don't play play.
hhahaa.
you're my only hopeee now.
:D

K: kuek
M: moose!
N: nicole
P: peiying
R: rebecca


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