i heard you're doing okay
but i want you to know
i'm addict
i'm addicted to you

i can't pretend i don't care
when you don't think about me
do you think I deserve this?
i tried to make you happy
but you left anyway

i'm trying to forget that
i'm addicted to you
but i want it and i need it
i'm addicted to you
now it's over
can't forget what you said
and i never wanna do this again
heartbreaker

since the day i met you
and after all we've been through
i'm still addict
i'm addicted to you
i think you know that it's true
i'd run a thousand miles to get you
do you think i deserve this?

i tried to make you happy
i did all that i could
just to keep you
but you left anyway
how long will i be waiting?
until the end of time

i don't know why i'm still waiting
i can't make you mine

heartbreaker
i'm addicted to you
visited my great grandmother yesterday.
she fell and bruised her entire right arm.
it looks pretty bad. to think that she's so old
and yet has to fall and worry about breaking
a bone.

my uncle got his hand stuck in a machine
on friday night. heard that he's hospitalised.
its his birthday today.

had tangyuann yesterday! hhahaha.
okay. so nat was right. it was quite good.
heh. yumm. although the BSP totally sucked.
egh.

i finished my social studies and one chapter
of history! hhahaha. i feel so behind time.
i mean. the exams are in three days.
and thats all i've revised. damn.

perhaps if she told him she loves him
and he told her he loved her.
things wouldn't have been like this.
cause she's hurting.

theres cath tml. so much for labour day!
hahaha. we'll probably go to grandma's for dinner.

its a saturday and i didn't have to wake up at seven. woohoo. hhahaha. although i still ended up late.
:D

ms sin pangseh us on friday.
actually she came.
but left WITHOUT seeing us. hhahaha.

it's been a wee bit cooler.
perhaps that'll spells the end of the cursed heatwave.


_things i'll never understand.
hhahah. i'm super happy now pleasee!
guitar gots a GOLD!!! A BIG FAT GOLD!!
AHH. i'm super elated la! hhahaha.
okaays. rewind. i shall start from the beginning.

umms. wednesday. the day before the big day.
had our english paper. i'm super glad its over. but yah. don't think i did very wells. i was super nervous before the paper can! hhahahah.
it felt as if i first time take exam like that.
blehs. so yupps. after everything.
gathered and left to go for our lunch.
rehearsed till four. super emo lah!
apparently we had a very artistic audience.
and ms sin said something that upsetted the bases.
hhahahaha. man. the feeling when that sentence came
was like BAM. very emo. wanted to cry. but yahs. nehh.

thursday!
woke up like super early lah! ughs. the roads were super empty.
mama and alicia came straight after me! heh.
we were the earliest! hahahaha. for oncee!
changed. got our hair done. had breaakfast.
milo and bread. practiced for the last time before setting off.
we left during PLR. so yah. it was super malu-ating to walk out in
front of so many people. eghs.
was super high in the bus! we were singing ultraa loudly la!
all you could hear was us. hhaahha.
laughed loads. had loads of fun lah. :D

alighted the bus. woohoo. everyone looked so smartly dressed.
heh. looks like guitar uniforms are all meant to be ugly! hhhahaha.
was very nervous. clammy hands and pounding heart.
waited for a while before heading to the tuning room.
for once you could see all the guitarist so cooperative and panicky.
hhahahaha. played once. i thought we were pretty good!
heh. left the room 20 minutes before our performance.

waited with ACSI and yu ying. the waiting feeling was super aghs. over-rated.
horrible. was feeling very nervous. oh man. i was so afraid of screwing up lah.
our turn came like super fast thoughs! so yah. made quite a few mistakes lah.
totally forgot my ending for yesterday. heh.
felt very rotten when we left the stage. it felt as if we did very badly.
oh man. felt so so so AGHS.
left the room and placed our guitars down before storming up again in record time!
headed in to see CHUNG CHING, RI, RGS, STG and SAC.
they were ALL super good la!! wahhs. felt even worse listening to them.
ms tan seemed happy enough. RGS was so unglam. they were so noisy during their setup.
BLEH. so didn't want to leave during interval. but yahs.
stupid exams. boarded the bus arounds 1040 i think. ohhs.
the uncle's music was on this time. i guess we were too noisy before.
hhahahha. we weren't much in the mood to scream and sing on the top of our lungs.
so yah. the journey was pretty much quiet.

reached school at 1115. just nice to see everyone heading back for recess.
embarassment! tried to drag time for as long as we could. the plan was to head back
after knowing the results. which we did. ate recess till 12. changed till 1220.
stayed in the ava with the secondguitarist, sam, alicia, dern, kim, mama, beaa and gwenial.
i counted the seconds each time i thought the clock showed 1230.
hhahaha. i was so so excited. called ms sin at 1230. was screaming and shouting into the phone. hahahahaa. ms sin didn't say anything but yah. from her tone you could tell la! oh man.
the feeling then was like super good. i was screaming and jumping around like mad!
even though the word GOLD haven't slipped out from her mouth. we could tell la.
everyone was super happy! till this idiot came and chased us out. hmmphff.
made plans to meet and scream again after school. reached the classroom after everyone finished screaming. no fair! hahahaha. but yahs. :D
it was confirmed. GOLD! WE'VE GOT A GOLD! hahahaha.
we were super high la.
couldn't concentrate during accounts at all. blehs.

after school. for once we were all ready so fast! hhahaha.
met sam downstairs. we all ran and hug each another like 10 years never see one another like that.
hahahahaha. bea came screaming while we were walking. hhahaha.
ran and hugged one another again. HEH.
ran to st.mics together after that. every guitarist was there i think.
i all i know that it was super hot! hahahaha.
scream scream scream. laugh laugh laugh.
when better news came. no school received gold with honours.
which means? hhahaha. which means we're the same standard as
RI? ACSI? blahblahblah. hhahaha. that was good enough to make us high again la!
pear came after we settled down. but seeing her so happy was enough to make us
scream and hug one another ALL OVER AGAIN. hahahahas.
said prayers. ms tgl came and said another round of prayers.
we prayed at least 10 times!
ms tan came after we said our super loud AMEN.
she was tearing?! woohoo. hhahahha.
laugh laugh laugh. another round of congrats.
kang lao shi cried! aww. so sad please.
ms ng was RED. like lobster red. hhahahaha.
everyone was happy. even more than happy.
we were ecstatic!
all we could say was GOLD. :))))

walked to tp for swensens. where a waiter spilled water all over sam.
she was super wet. hahaha. but she was laughing like non stop la.
that waiter should thank his lucky stars! hahahaha.
called ms sin again. we were screaming into the phone like super loudly!
hahahaha. malu-ating! but we didn't really care lors.
she promised to come down tml! heh. if it wasn't exams we'll probably
party till next week or something! walked around courts before we said our goodbyes.
so yupps.

i'm tired. but glad that we did so well.
not expected. seriously not expected!
it was super nice to see everyone smiling. no wait. GRINNING and shaking on stage.
power. it was very very nice. hahahaha.
:D
wells i cannot stop smiling! hhahahah.

shall go bathe now!
TAA!
:D





the weather has been frickin hot.
ughs. humid humid humid.

ohhs. englishmid is tml. and boy am i excited.
hahahha. yah rights. but yah. probably more
excited bouts our last practice and all till the big break.
the well deserved big break.
we've been working like seriously hard minus
and the complainswhiningsminipicnicsandcrappingwedopracticallyeveryminute!
heh. we worked hard i'd say.
:D

cleared my entire table today.
boy do i have losta books.
took the bus home with nat.
yupp. was talking bouts tangyuan and my
yummilicious BSP.
i likeee. made me super hungryy thoughs. hhahaha.

ehhs. i managed to play bits of tonghua.
with my super duper hearing.
but eventually i just ripped it off the net. heh.
gwashhs. i lovee that song! ahhs.

ohhs. bossini was giving out prettypretty windmills
on saturday. boy are singaporeans overly kiasu and
inconsiderate. they were pushing and shouting like
super aggresively. please lahs. its just some paper
windmill. of course. they were more interested in the
discount coupon. tsk tsk.
hah.

got picked on by laoshi todays. hahahaha.
noelles and me were supposedly supposed
to hand up our zuoye before leaving.
but of course we happily left.
with noelles running and laughing from who knows what.
hhahahaha. mans. it was super funny.
i laughed like super hard please. hahaha. :D

i should probably get my ass back to the books.
gah.





`whenyoutoldmeyoulovedme;
believeinourhappyeverafter.











i'm feeling super lousy.
:(
woohoo. its finally friday. like seriously friday!
i've been looking forward to friday since what? monday?
heh. wells. its here and i'm practically overjoyed. bleh.

stayed back for physics today. my gosh.
for once i actually understood what ms lim taught!
heh. i feel so accomplished. i just pray so hard it'll
stay in my brain for the next 14 days or so.
yupps.

i'm done with most of my homework so the wholee
weekend i'm free! hahaha. except for the fact that my
first paper starts in 5 days?! hhahaha.
other then that i'm kinda free. :)
although i so need to get started on my revision. yupp.
if not. i'm like so not gonna pass.
and thats like the only thing thats keeping me awake during lessons.
the thought of passing my exams. like seriously.
i am so so tired of trying to keep awake.
its make me even moreee tired. hahhahah. okay. i'm making no sense.

ehhs. i've got like 14 mosquitos bite on one freaking leg.
and its super itchy! i applied anti-itch cream at least 5 times already.
and its still killing me! ughs.

took the bus to school today. the car got into a little
accident and thus is in the garage. although theres a
rental car. but yahs i wasn't in the mood to get fetched to school.
its the what?! fourth time the car got into a 'small' accident lah.
ohhs and the bus was freaking crowded.
stupid marymount girls. heh. i don't like marymount girls ya know.
like seriously they pisses me off. HAH. i probably piss them off toos. heh.
but yah. walked up the slope with nat and her cousin.
gosh. we were like SO close to a bloody squirrel.
and i kinda dislike squirrels. i mean. cartoon squirrels are cute.
but a live squirrel is disgusting. eh. okay maybe not disgusting.
but freaking scary! its like so fake looking. and its tail is like made up
of bristles instead of FLUFFY poofy bush.
and eeks. it just isn't that very cute lahs.
i think squirrels are evil. don't you think so?
wells they look evil.
yuppp.

talking bouts cartoons. i'm like in a super cartoon-y mood!
watched tweetybird, the skunk cartoon and mickey and minnie mouse
on wednesday night! goshh. it was super nicee.
i feel so young. hahaha. like whatever.
but yah i loveee watching those olden day cartoons.
okay so maybe not that olden.
but yah. i don't really like those modernised cartoons.
so not feeling it lahs.
i lovee tweetybird. man. so cute.
i like warnerbrothers cartoons. its super kindergarden-ish. yepps.
:D
BUGS BUNNY. HAH. i like.

ohs. anyways. nat and her cousin were having a
conversation of 5 wholee minutes about different stuff.
its like i'm talking about apples and you're talking about pears?
err. okaaay. but yah. i sat there and listened to two different
conversations before telling them that they were talking about
two whole freaking different things. man. it was super funny lahs.

copied alot today. i was like writing non-stop lahs.
my fingers are super pain.

tml is our LAST saturday practice. and boy am i elated.
man. i've been waiting for this day since last last year.
ughs. its over!soon at least. weee. hhahahaha.

okaays. i'm feeling super itchy. i feel so dirty.
ughs. i'm breaking out in rash. i think its heat rash.
though it isn't like super serious. but ughs.
the thought of rash isn't very pleasant. blehs.

i brought home my guitar on thursday. caused i changed my string and all.
and i so tuned the wrong string la. i thought i was tuning the third string.
so i turn turn turn. it was still freaking loose. so i turned somemore.
only to realise that i was tuning the freaking first string.
it was so tight it felt like it was gonna burst. oh man.
i was like super stressed can. ughhs. :(
my wholeee guitar is off. like really reallly OFF. BLAH.

kays. i should go.
i'm hungrryy. heh.
i typed like super alot please.
i feel like an ass. blehs.
kays.sayo.





_i wanna hold your hand. alas. we have a new pontiff. a new shepherd of the flock.
a new ruler to rule and bring us to greater heights.
pope benedict the XVI
i should be elated shouldn't i? but somehow. i'm not.
i don't know. i don't like the feeling of a change.
even if its a good change. that is.
i mean. i still miss our holy father and i don't like the
fact that he's never ever going to be here and someone's
gonna take that place.

sure. i'm happy that we've finally found our new father.
but yet. don't you think he looks slightly evil? hhahaha.
hey. looks is still important whether or not you're a pope!
hhhahaha.
but yah. what if. he turns out to be a bad pope. waait.
that possiblity is too slim to be even considered. wells.
what can i say. i'm a stubborn child. i'll grow to like him
over time. grow to respect this new leader.
till then. i shall continue. feeling disappointed at the choice made.
hhahahaha. although sam did have a point about him.
being a follower of pope john paul the II, he would know
what we're used too. and how to lead the catholic religion
in aspects that pope john paul the II would.
so yah. :) heh.
i shall stop ranting. blah.

i was super hyper today. hhahaha. especially during physics.
okaay. so maybe sitting at the back isn't that conducive afteralls.
i keep yakking away. and the midyears are in what? 14 days?
gosh. i'm so unprepared lah! damnn. i need to pass.
i seriously need to. i want to do well. but yah.
why am i still slacking away then?!
ughs. i hate my laziness. like seriously.
bleach.

anyways. see the new skin. nice ehhs.
found quiet a few pretty skins yesterday.
but this was probably the nicest of the lot.
theres full dress rehershal tml. so NOT looking forward to it.
ughs. i just washed the uniform at what 3?
lets hope it'll dry by tml.
if not i shall bring it to school and dry it then! hhahaha.
dots. but yupp. its super smelly. ughs.
eghs. i should stop trying to change things i know i cant eh.
nevermind. so yupps.
i SHOULD start revising now.
heh. :D




`sothisishowyouwishtoplaythegame.makemefallheadoverheels.outtacontrol.breakmyheartthenwatchmecry. don'tgobreakingmyheart.



umms. lets see.
bio test was cancelled today.
cause ms ng was tired. hor. so pig!
hhhahaha. but good. cause i didn't study. hahahaa.
i'm so saliva-ry today. bleh. okaay. you didn't needed to know that.heh. :D
had recess today and was having
our own mini debate bouts the casino thingy.
i was totally against it at first.
i seriously thought it would be a bad idea. bad bad idea.
it just seems wrong that the government is building a casino in singapore.
maybe i'm so against it cause i felt that it was something thats gonna encourage
those idiotic gamblers out there to continue with their addiction.
yes. a small gamble during the new year
is fine. but can singaporeans reeaally control themselves?
even despite the fact that they're owing the bank and
not those loansharks.and the situation can be controlled.
yet gambling is something that has been causing that
huge strain in my family. though not in the financial sort of way.
without the casino. and i don't like the fact that a casino.
a bigger escapade for already hooked on gamblers. is going to be built.
in singapore! not somewhere you needed to take a plane.
but just a mrt ride down. and tadaa. you're there!
its easy for families who doesn't gamble say how fun its gonna be.
but for a family who has parents as gamblers. or even worse. are
always neck high in debt. can this casino cause so much of a difference.
i think? hhahaha. i so know how a small little gamble.
can break up a family. man. but when i flipped through the papers today.
i realised that maybe its not going to be that bad idea afterall.
i mean. they make it sound so harmless and fun? hhahaha.
maybe its not going to be ALL about gambling. but you know.
a fun and hot trendspot or something.
it looks like a really fun recreation ground that can you know
allow singaporeans to be proud of. like when people ask you.
so whats so nice about singapore?
you don't except the zoo? the bird park? the esplanade to keep
tourists attracted right? hhahaha.

that doesn't even keep us, singaporeans interested.
i think it'll be something different. something new in singapore.
hmm. i don't know lahs. whether they built it or not. i don't really care actually.
hahahahha. lets just hope when that time comes. everything will be just like before.
maybe even better. though i know that when its up and going. i'll be finally of age to step
in my first casino. the casino built in singapore. exciting eh. hhahaha. dots.
enough of this. its kinda boring. blah.
:)

ohhs. sunday was as usual disappointing. heh.
ehhs. got disciplined bouts my dressing again.
i appreciate the fact that she doesn't shoot
it off in front of my face. but i'm sure. the next
time i bump into her. i'm surely gonna get it big.
so yah. i guess i'll have to start getting a 'uniform'.
hhahaha. man. see la! this kind of small little thing
like dressing they can also kick up sucha big fuss.
blehh.

monday. was ehh. honestly. i can't really remember.
hhahahah. i'm so stressing over the cost of the uniform
like big time. i don't like the fact that i'm paying for something
totally not worth my money! its crap lahhs.
anyways. i cleared my table today.
my gosh. its sparkling CLEAN. hhahaha.
i never use it so yah. its good to know that it'll be staying
clean for quite sometime. heh.

ohhs. i think i kinda like my new seat.
its not that bad lahhs. yupyup.
okaay. this post is like getting super wordy.
hhahaha. so i shall stop now.
chao.







oh man. i'm super tired. bleh.
ran my 2.4 today. gosh. i so sucked.
everyone came in with a not-bad timing.
hahahaha. i came in with a 17 minute plus plus time la!
hhahha. okaay. honestly i don't mind as long as
i pass lor. heh.
(:

anyways. waited for bouts 45 minutes before
leaving rj. headed to j8 for the forbidden breakfast.
hahhaha. dots. we ate super fast anyways! heh.
beaa's daddy fetched us back to school
to save us the travelling and all. the car actually managed
to transport 10 people comfortably back la!
hhahaha. damn funny. the auntie's face was priceless
when she saw so many people coming out of the car.
bleh.

so yupps. headed for guitar. only to receive news that
ms sin was carrying out her quartet thingy thing.
ughhs. i was the second group up lah!
gosh. i was super nervous. hahaha.
but yah. we failed even before we could play finish ONE
song. hhahaha. pathetic neh.

i had 20 minutes to rush down to paragon. i ended
up reaching there 15 minutes late. -pouts
so yah. blahblahblah.
and yupps. i'm now super tired and sleepy.
i should go now. if i want to wake up early for church tml.

oh!oh! i think the song tonghua is damn nice! hahaha.
heard it from alicia while waiting for the bus.
downloaded it alreadys. goshh. its super nice! hhahahaha.
:D
kays. i'm off!







_struck. its fridaaay! wee. TGIF.
hhahahah. dots.
but yaah. its like finally
after five days of torture its finally
the weekends. ugh. not that tml going
to be any of a dayoff. gonna be rushing like mad.
i can so predict the future! hhahaha.
dots.

okaay anyways. walked home in the rain today.
umm. actually it was a downpour! or even a storm.
okay i'm exaggerating. bleh.
hhahaha. but gweneal took a cab so i could
have her umbrella. hhahaha.
that girl's rich! but yaah. since she lent me her brolly i
shan't be mean. hhahaha.

wells. had to sit outside the door, dripping wet.
while my brother was at home enjoying the aircon in his room.
i was freaking pissed when i found out.
i hate to be locked out of the house.
even worse when i am wet and
there was someone in the house.
UGH. was super angry lahs.
don't wanna talk bouts it anymore.
hummpfh.

jessica was giving out HUGEE cookies today.
hhahaha. yah lah. very sweet lah!
hhahaha. it was very nice. serious!
its the thought that counts right?
bleh. hhahhaa. anyways. loveeya.

umms. come to think of it i think i hate blogging.
hahahaha.
actually its kinda stupid. relating whatever
happened today to no one in particular?
er. weirds? its like talking to yourself!
bleh.

wells. due to my temper. i skipped lunch and did
my maths. haahaha. for oncee. i did homework on
a friday! i feel so guai. hhahaha.
i needed something to keep my mind occupied
and away from my growling stomach anyways. heh.

ohhs. we're gonna be running our 2.4 tml.
gosh. i'm so not in the mood to run la.
ughs. i smell failure alreaady! sobs.
so why bother right? right.
ahhs. just can't wait for it to be over.
bleh.

have to rush back for guitar tml.
we had better end early! i don't
want to be rushing like a idiot.
blehs. we're ending later and later kays.
stupid syf. blah.

i miss sitting with dianne! :(
ughh. we're in our examinations arrangments.
and boy does it suck. BLEH.
although i do think we're quieter. hhahaha.
still. i think it sucks. hhhhaha.

i think i need to stop cursing. yeaahh.
anyways. i'm off. saayo.






our uniform sucks. yupp.
its totally disgusting. like usual.
but what can you expect from the same toothead tailor?
kinda disappointed. i'm going to spend 80 freaking bucks on
something i know i'll never wear. tsk.
the colour of the top is so disgusting can.
bleh. we shouldve gotten white.
it would have looked much much better.
i mean how wrong could white and black get?
nahh. don't even want to think abouts it.
but the cost is too much to bear.
heh. so yupp it sucks pretty much.
ugh.

guitar was super tiring today.
maybe because of the weather.
i was hot, sticky and totally tired.
thats the thing with guitar.
it gets me tired like super easily.
holding the guitar and playing with such
enthusiasm isn't that easy okaay.
bleh.

i'm gorging myself with lotsa unhealthy food ya know?
i'm feeling fat. hhahahaha.
seriously lah! just look at how i'm eating.
man. i need to start excercising.
though i know thats just all empty talk. hahahaha.

our class is totally screwed lah.
i seriously don't know whats wrong.
but yah. its not that eating into me. yet.
hhahahha. i know it will eventually.
i mean we're getting scolded practically
every single day? woohoo. the joy.
hhahahaa.
thoughs i still love my class. i think. hahahaha.
okaay. all the sleepy talk is getting me
to sprout nonsense.
i'm off.

don't you think the words are getting smaller and smaller?
or is it just me?






today wasn't much of a joy.
heh.the weather is like super hot!
haven't been feeling much like myself nowadays.
i'm sad! hhahaha.
actually i don't really get what i'm becoming.
i'm falling back into the hole i tried so hard to get out from.
falling back on things that i tried so hard to forget.
tried so hard to change. i'm becoming someone i hate.
i so hate this feeling.
everything seems to be breaking apart.
and i don't like that much.
why can't everything just stay the same?
why can't everyone just stay the same?
why are human beings so fond of being influenced?
why can't those bad people just stay away.
and just harm themselves. ugh!

have been feeling seriously sleepy nowadys.
hah.i can hardly keep my eyes open anymore.
the midyears are coming. and i'm like so not prepared.
i'm such a procrastinator.
bleh.at the rate i'm going. i think i'm gonna fail terribly or something.
sighh.

had our geog. test today. i totally had no time at all.
like wth lah. maybe i should have studied harder?
i guess. but i totally answered what i didn't need too.
mixed up all my facts. got the processes all jumbled up.
and skipped questions that were as easy as nut.
ugh.

ohh. we got back our maths test too.
as usual. i failed. i could have passed kay.
i missed out on the simplest questions ever.
i so hate myself. bleh. i feel so dumb. heh.
cause they were questions that i knew how to do.
and they were the questions with the marks i so needed to pass.
rahh.

theres guitar tomorrow and on thursday.
i'm excited. hhahhaha.
we getting the uniform tomorrow.
and it costing us quite a lot of money.
and i'm like penniless!
it better be nice. and totally what we designed.
if not. i'm so not going to pay! bleh.

i'm suffering from major moodswings.ya know?
:(

i didn't blog abouts sunday did i?
wells. i owe ruishan like big timee.
hhahahaha. was kinda disappointed.
don't really see the need to elaborate.
lets just keep it a memory. yupp.
but yeah. i had fun i guess.
but i was really. really disappointed.
things just don't work out the way i want them too anymores.
hmmphf.

everything i aint supposed to be feeling are all
boom! coming back to me all at the same time.
and i'm not really welcoming them!
bleh.
why can't you just leave me alone?
why can't you stop bringing me false hopes?
why can't you just go away?
because thats something i know i can never bring myself to do.
let you go.
ughh.

okaay. i should probably go now.
this sucks. hhahahaa.
i'm so not getting this.
bleh.
taa!





`blastthesehauntingmemories. was kinda upset yesterday.
everything just went boom. wrong.
okay. so maybe. i was the one being an ass
finding fault in everything possible.
i'm sorry.
:)

caught the pope burial on friday.
shiok! it was so cool.
there were SO many people.
i want to go stay in the vatican when i grow up.
hhaahaha.
okaay. but yah.
don't you think its a pretty little place to stay in?
heh. :D
wells. was feeling majorly upset while watching it.
i kinda miss our pope.
hhahahha.
and to think while he is alive and kicking.
i've never once mentioned about him.
BLAH.
but yup. the mass was majestic.
nicenicee. though. it was kinda boring.
since it was ALL in latin.

got chased out of the comfy ava today.
bleh. had to lug all our heavy guitars
to the classroom on the third floor
only to be chased out AGAIN
to the fourth floor.
waahs. could have so killed myself just then.
bleh. but yup. we got settled eventually.
heh.

practiced till my fingers ached and peeled.
eeks. hurts lah. but yup.
todays' guitar was probably the most fruitful
guitar lesson ever.hhaaha.
we were so serious! hhhahha.
we played so well lah! i feel so proud of the ensemble.
hee.

had ruishan to accompany me to paragon today.
so yupps. i was just nice for lesson.
shiok. heh.

i bought my shoes. okaay. took a long time
considering whether i should buy it or not.
and yah. i'm not pleased with it yet.
hahahaha. hopefully. the shoe will prove me wrong.
bleh.

i'm feeling utterly disgusted while i type this
having known that my keyboard has been
molested by a superly disgusting unwashed hands
after visting the bloody bathroom. gacks.
the friends the men in the household finds enjoyment with.
ugh.

hhahaha. okaay. i'm totally off point now.
i'm so looking forward to tomorrow.
hopefully there wouldn't be another
episode of regret.
sigh.

i totally cannot acess blogger with my other computer!
blogger is so screwed lah! its either that or my computer
who sucks. hhahaha.
oh!oh! see my new skin.
nice right! hhahaha.

okay. so its like totally PLAIN.
like seriously. theres nothing but a black box.
dots. but i like. hmmph. hhahahaa.

kays. i'm outta here.
taa!






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`losing my sanity.
its been long.
when finally it has come to an end.

sunday.
went to pay repects at the temple.
yupp. walked there.hhahhaha.
it was super far lah! okay lah. not that far.
but yup. on bright hill? is that what its called?
but anyways. there was a major congestion.
tsk. hhahaha.
lucky for us who went by foot.
despite the hot scorching sun!
bleh.

everywhere was covered in smoke.
and ashes flew in the air.
there was a hugee fire.
found a place.
set up the stuff.
grandma prayed and blahblahblah.
went to see the urn. freaky. but yupp.
in a weird way.cool. hah.
there were TALL walls packed with golden coloured urns.
long winding hallways. i sound as if i'm writing a compo.

but well it was a great experience. considering that all
15 years of my life its the first time i'm
stepping into a temple and seeing my
ancestors' urns.
hmm. exciting eh. hahahaha.
dots. i sound like a ignorant kid! BLEH.

my eyes were tearing really badly.
it wasn't much of couldn't breathe.
more like couldn't see! the smoke was
woohoo. heavy.

cath. was boring.
dinner was quick. hhahaha.
everyone left early today.
so yupp. we did too. felt kinda bad leaving
her all by herself at home at what?
6 in the evening?! but yup.
she walked us down. see! doesn't that spell something?
but yah. there wasn't really much to keep us there.
considering the fact that we ate dinner at 5.15.
ugh.

monday.
it was super cold.brr.
couldn't concentrate cause
i was super sleepy.
had to rush out a ss project.
something we didn't even lift a finger and
had materials to present. i hate presentations.
partly because i have to talk like really loud, unwillingly.
so my voice comes out all weird and squeaky.
sucks lah.

and it was so last minute.yupp.
ehh.had to rush out my history project after
recess. i'm such a procrastinator that i end
up doing all my projects last minute during lessons.
stayed back till three to complete it.
i was seriously pleased with it lah!
hhahaha. riight.

came back and did my geography project.
hahahaha. see what i mean!
which was due today.
i did 19 pretty slides all by myself!
what an accomplishment! hhahahaha.
was even more pleased with my geography project
than ever.

tuesday.
got caught for my stinking belt.
bleh.kunna was like.why is your belt so loose?
i was wanted to say.cause i suddenly woke up and
found out that i lost alot of weight. hah.
but yah.i nodded and walked away.
she's so irritating! she didn't let us present!
waaa. but mainly cause there wasn't time.
but yah! i spend a long time on it kay!
hmmpfh.

dianne didn't like the idea of 19 slides
so she has decided to reimprovised it.
dots. but yah.

had a really fast spotcheck by joteo.
she came in and demanded for the phones.
err.okay? hahahaha. but yup.
she promised to return them without the need
of a search which is byebye forever.
a few went up.
and she didn't believe that was all!
hhahaha. so cute.
she went around asking everyone she thought
looked suspicious. okaaay.
but yupp. she left us after that.
she's damn cute! hahahha.
she.nice afterall. hah.
okaay. :D

sat in front for chinese today
and boy was that a baaad mistake.
it was so freaky sitting in front.
she's SO near. i can see her.
man. at the back i hardly can
even see what she's wearing! but yah.
in front. thats a whole new story.
so i was bored. stiff. and totally. irritated.
i don't like new environments i found out.
hahhahaha. but yah.
i don't know what made me sit there.
not that i was angry or anything.
i was just really unhappy with my previous seat.
sigh. i just i have to do something about it again
tomorrow. arghs.

wells. did our five items today.
but only with the usual guitar people.
and yupp. i sucked.
i did like super badly? was so disappointed.
at least i passed.
i hope? ugh.
i screwed up everything. hahahaha.
i got mostly Ds if not Es.
while others just walked happily away with As and Bs.
thanks alot! hhahahah.
2.4 is like next week. ugh.

took 851 home today. well. it took it home yesterday too.
i realised that it was the best way to excerise! hhahaha.
since i am so lazy to go jogging.
heh. i shall walk that short distance home.
i'm so happy with my brilliant idea!
heh.whatever.

had our memorial mass for our pope.
super nice. i thought we were very good.
at least from right in front i thought they were good.
we were really loud lor.
and i could tell we all meant it.
mrs siau cried. okay. i was shocked. but yah.
hhahaha. okaay. anyways.
i liked the mass! nicenice.

he was really such a great man.
and i think i'll miss him! he did so much. seriously
like so much for this religion.for 26 years.
has he faithfully served our lord.
he brought us through so many different phases.
he changed so much off the thinkings.
he did things that others had never thought
was needed to be done.
he cared. he taught. he reached out to the poverty.
he spreaded the word of god. he reconciled his flocks.
he made them whole. he had a dream. he dream he never
lived to see. he made things happen.
he was a great leader, great sheperd, great father.
that i can be very sure that he would be missed.
now that the father has taken him back to his kingdom.
a great servant of servants has been lost.
farewell, pope john paul II.
farewell. may you rest in peace.
and forever reign in your people's hearts.
for he will be missed by many.
:D

may eternal rest grant unto our father, pope john paul II
and let perpetual light shine upon him.


i miss our pope! to think that for 15 years i never
knew much of our pope. and to come to the day where
he passes on. i find out everything i never knew about that
great man.

and yah. his death really made me think about how low and
selfcentered i've been. as in. i'm so distant from my faith.
doing nothing meaningful in my life.
i feel so unworthy to be called a catholic.
although i'm proud to be one! haahahaha.
okaaay. the irony?

shant turn this into a long boring and stupidly draggy post.
hah. although it already is! hhahaha. its just my
short and sincere tribute okaay!
finee.i'm out. bleh.







`stained

i'm feeling like a cranky fusspot.
ughs. fuck this feeling.
i'm going through MAJOR moodswings.
BLAH.

friday.
charismatic.disappointed.
mostly.but the session was not bad.
the praiseandworship was good.
the prayer was just horrible.
charismatic does that to me.
i go in feeling like shit.
go through the process knowing i was shit
and cries at how pathetic i am.
and comes out and goes back being shit.
hahahaha.
okay.right.

saturday.
it was raining the entire day.
yes the weather was super shiok in the morning.
but when it came to the afternoon.
it was pure draggy.
egh. brought a battrey-less discman.
dots. hahaha.
but yupp.
no big.
history was not bad.
i think i'm getting it. somehow.
cause everything is like bits and pieces.
that i seemingly seem to know.
okaay. i'm talking senseless.
you can so ignore this post.
bleh.
lunch was sick.
pure disgust.eee.
came home early.
blahblahblah.
dinner was crap by the way.

sunday.
woke up with major pain.everywhere.
was still happy like shit in the morning.
so sure that the day was going to be perfect.
and there goes.
heads for mass.
ends up being cranky again.
and see. i ruined everything i waited so long for.
i was being such a bitch throughout mass.
i wanted to slap myself.
ARGH.
upset. :((

`iguessitsoverhuh.maybeitjustwasntwhatithoughtitcouldbe.


i feel like sobbing my eyeballs out.
although yes. i thank you lord.
for letting him just be there.

came home. and now i'm happy again.
SEE. i just had to be shit during mass.
somebody. shoot me.
okay.i'm thinking too much.

had breakfast.
only to read the papers and find out that the pope passed on.
why wasn't i inform?!! ahhs.
although. i think i recall the priest saying something bouts it.
i feeling like crying real bad.
god bless him.
bring him happily into your kingdom.
and live. in your presence.
haihh.

whats with the shit about bgr?
please la! although i do have a word for him.
its getting kinda o.v.e.r.b.o.a.r.d
please lah. don't you know anything about being lowkey?
i think youre misusing their trust.
and i doubt youre getting anything of this in.blah.
okay.
have to head to the temple now.
to pay respects to my grandfathers.
i'm excited. hhahahha.
dots.

i'm out.








`whycan'teverythinglikebebefore?


__tangled.messup.crashed.



my eyes hurt and so does my throat.
and i'm feeling super restless.
man. i like a walking corpse.
heh.

kunna didn't come today. shiok lah.
there were 13 people absent from history.
which made the lesson much more conductive.
we had a easier time answering and all.
good. good. hhahaha.

yup. so kunna didn't come.
was having fun scribbling in each anothers'
pictoral book. dots. but yupp. hhahaha.
fun. :D
ms ng is weird! hahaha.
cause sam,steph and me were in the toliet.
when we came back.
she shouted reaaally loudly.
'why are you so late for bio?!'
dots la. although she was joking.
her loudness kinda scared me. hah.

got the class pictures. it sucks la!
gosh. hate it. feel like burning it.
BLEH.
disgusting! ee-yer.

i haven't done homework in ages!
haaahha. being mrs mah didn't come to
school for a week? shiok!
although its making me lazier.
ugh.

kays. i'm out.




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