the skin so sucks la. ughhs.
wanted to do a nicer-than-this one.
but aurgh. it got on the nerves of me.
:(
but it was kindanice. nicer than this crap la!
i can't even find my tagboard.
i know i added it.
but. hee. i can't seem to find it.
cursed the pervious skin.
i should have hosted the picture myself.
*pouts.
nevermind.
i shall change it soon.
when i'm in a better mood.
and blogskins isn't as screwedup as it is now.
hummprf.

the weather is like freaking hot!
:((

guitar totally sucked today.
tired of caring about what people say or do anymore.
to tired to even put it to heart.
no doubt it hurt.
as if anyone seemed to care.
i know they do. just that.
aiyaahs.
nevermind. i don't even know what i'm talking about.
i'm pushing everyone away from me.
just go away.
please.
leave me alone.

i don't want to lose my friends because of my immaturity in handling stuff.
give me some time.
left without the rest today.
i was seriously upset la.
so yah. not angry just upset.
which caused audrey and priscilla to get kinda worried.
cause i was usually the ultra talkative one.
and nowadys i'm like. woohoo. super quiet.to the extent that i ignored every single person. i'm sorry yaah?

good what right! being quieter. hhahahaha.
no la. just take it that i'm pms-ing.
i'm sorry. seriously i am. if i've made you irritated, upset and what not.
i'm sorry having pushed you guys away even though i knew you guys really cared!
:))

ran in the rain today. well not exactly in the rain.
but ran while it was still raining.
so irritating can. the weather was like supeeer humid. plus you're perspiring.
and ughs. nevermind.
don't even want to talk about it.

so yupp. walked super slow.hhahaha.
was like the last to reach there.
mwaha.
not like i care.
hee.

had our so called lunch today.
it was not that nice.
but can la.
it made me sick though.
the fries were super oily and undercooked?
so we were eating like raw fries soaked in oil.
i seriously doubt the auntie's cooking skills.
hhahahaha.
like i could do any better.
heh.

and the chicken wings were supposedly nice.
but to me. the i-obviously-don't-know-what-i'm-talking-about one la. it was kinda bland.tasteless and utterly disgusting. i never liiked chickenwings anyway. it just looks good.
bleagh. :D

nevermindd. at least it was cooked.
hhahahaha. but yupp. everyone had a good time.
so yeaahs. happy ending.
hhahahaha.

the olevelresults are gonna be out on monday righht?
gosh. so exciting! hhaahaha.
i'm feeling super excited for them la.
hhahaha.
whatever.

anyways. so yah. was seriously late today.
i left school at 1245 and what? i needed to be there at 1245 if i wanted to get ready?
i was so so late la.
so yah. practically ran from the mrt to paragon.
i could feel my sole burning. literally.
pratically pushed everyone out of sight. which i did.
cause they were crawling on the road la.
which totally irritated me.
hhahahaha.
ohman. what a sight.
bleagh.

so yah. was totally pissed. at who knows what.
being late it guess.
i seriously hate rushing.
but yet. i'm alwaays late.
which only leaves me the choice of rushing like mad to my destination.
aaahs.
so irritating!

bought a cap today.
it dammn nice la.
loveeit.
so yah.

thats that. lunch was disgusting.
my stomach's been hurting really bad nowadys.
hate it la.
i feel so disabled.
aurghf.

it feels like eleven when its only nine.
damnnit.

k. i've probably crapped enough.
i'm off.






`whereareyouwhenineedyou.dontyouhearmecallingyourname.dontyouhearmycries.whyareyouchoosingtoignoreandhurtmelikeyouneverusedtoobefore.
:( freak. my post just went spastic.
which means ive got to repost.
ughhs. which makes me even more feel like not blogging now.
hummprf.
and there are huge spaces between words.
or is it just me? ahhs. can't be bothered.

was feeling super down today.
:((
was damn restless la.
don't know why.
i just wanted to go home.

chinese was damn slack!
she was so heckcare today!
woohoo.
ohhs. i don't know why but no matter
how sleepy i am. i can never sleep properly in class.
i kept squirming. heh. so i decided to not disturb noelle and jeannie.
so yah, just sat there and stoned like a stupid idiot.
ughs.
boriing. it was like naptime though! hhahaha.
:)

maths passed in a flash.
i didn't even know it was over.
we practically did nothing?!
ohwells. not that i'm complaining.
so we got let off early.
:D

when i heard the guitar announcement today.
i realise that. i can't believe i'm saying this.
but yaah. i realise that guitar wasn't that bad after all.
and it was kind of. not too bad.
i wouldn't say fun. cos i'll probably be complaining again on thursday.
hee. :)))
i actually didn't mind going for the sectionals.
heh. but i'm not even involved. so ya. thats the point.
nevermind! :)

i've got physics to do!
aurghhas.
i so don't understand la. the worksheet she gave was uncomprehendable.
hhahaha. ooo. such a long word.
heh.
anyway. so yupp. but she's always so firm on homework.
bweagh.
shall go and try reeeally hard to do it then.
:)








___dontknowwhereimheaded.


watched drumline last night.
waah. that show is like super cool la! it totally rocked! :D
the guy was so cute. ohman. the band is like grand.
woohoo. thats something you can never see in singapore.
seriously. their band is so focused and professional.
and its hugee. i wouldn't mind joining a band like that.
woohoo. and the main point is that they're blacks.
which makes it even cooler. cause. aiyah.
the way they are so determined to excel and work hard
is super nice la.
:))))
was supposed to sleep early. but. because of the show.
i slept at eleven. when i am supposed to wake up at fivethirty.
i'm sleeepy!!

soyupp. woke up. went for mass. i was so tired. i couldn't move.
heh. but yahla. i still had strength to arguee. hee.
so yupp. went for mass. looking like a freak.
my clothes were totally off.
hahahaha. i looked like i came in my pjs.
hee. no la. but yah. i thought i look kinda horrible.
:D
but yupp. was damn upset. and. lalalala.
i was on a sudden mood turn.
i was supeeer happy during mass!
hee.
finally!after a month.you were there! :)))
but i finally found a reason to stop believing that things might happen.
things could work out. that you'll finally realise my existence.
i'm just happy seeing you. and thats all i'm asking for.
no more. not anymore at least.
everything was part of my freaking imagination.
everything was just wistful thinking on my part.
things arent going to work.
at least i think not.
i'm tired of trying.tired of hoping.tired of yearning for things i know can never be mine.
:((
it hurt yes.
but i guess it wasn't as deep since nothing even started.
never will. never will be. will it?
don't think theres a ever will be.
i'm give up.
give.up.
no more crying over you.
no more hurting.
though i doubt the pain will end here.
:(
alls just a fantasy.we were just.not meant to be.

wells going for cath later.
not really looking forward to it.
ughhs. i'm so tired i just wnna sleep.
ahhs. gotta study for ss now.
taaa.

i make the sillest dreams sometimes and its amazing how much it bothers me. :((

history was damnn funny today la. she was showing us some pictures. which when you actually look closer who can see different things. it was about different perspectives lor. and it was damnn cool! :))))

though guitar was extreeemely boring ytd. especially when your brains spaced and you don't have your scores. and the scores at hand were. heh. un-understandable.
:)))
but yupp. better than nothing! thanks gladys for sacrificing your filee!

my throat hurts!! :((

i can't believe its friday!!! wweee. tgif!
:)) finally. i can get some rest.
been so looking forward to this weekend la.

wells. its raining again! yipppee!
i hope it pours at night and chases the eeeky mosquitoes away!

ohhhs. it's clara's birthday today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAREE!
i reeemembered! hee. x))
mwaa.
<3>





so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

there's so many times i've let you down
so many times i've played around
i tell you now, they don't mean a thing
ev'ry place i go, i'll think of you
ev'ry song i sing, i'll sing for you

now the time has come to leave you
one more time
let me kiss you
then close your eyes
i'll be on my way
dream about the days to come
when i won't have to leave alone
about the times, i won't have to say

oh, kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe, i hate to go




just whisper those words i long to hear
and i promise. i'll try as hard as i can.
to finally let go.

i'm so slurweeepy. didn't get much sleep last night.
so yeaah. was so stoned today. bweagh. :)))

wells. had our maths test today.
seriously. i doubt i'll pass it.
it was SO hard. waaahs. i was like.
err? this? test?! now? hummrpf.
it was so haard. i doubt i'll pass.
:((

hahahaha. everyone was running away from mrs mah because
she was collecting homework and most of us havent hand up.
inculding me. heh.
so we all like rushed out of the class hoping she wont see us.
hahahaha.
dots. :))

laughed so hard during chinesee!hhahaha.
cos ehh.germaine was trying to sing for puiquan.and so happen the class was very quiet.
and suk kian was like. aiyohh. it so off lor.
her confused expression was so cutee. but she sang quite okay lor.
the five of us were laughing our heads off.
dammn farney laa. :))))

wells. went to do our survey-ing today. goshhh.
from five? it was down to two people who were doing it.
ughhs. but yah la. no harm donee.
we did till like what? five?
ate lunch at four. hahahaa.
more like. teaa. :))

approached the funniest people ever.
there was this veery nice girl. waah.
she was damn sweet la. so yupp.

finished like fifty surveys! woohoo.
okay. actually it not thaat much.
hee.

yeaahs! theres gonna be yushang today.
yumyumm.


noeelle! i miss ya too! okayla.
not that much fun. but good enough lors.
i guess we were too busy with work to reaally sit and talk.
buut don't be sad. cheerup!!
i'll always be here for you. being you were always there for mee!
moveon and forget about those unhappy stuff!
you've got greeat friends around you!
aheem. hhahaa. but yeaahs. cheer up!
wish to see the annoying irritating lame always smiling noelle again!
kaays? loveeee!
mwaa. <3
and yes! we must go shopping one day.
i didn't forget k. i've got a superuber memory!
hahahaha.
:)))))
see! generous with my strokes! hhahahaha.
don't cry! hhahahaha. i'm just playing.
memories are always yours to keep.
but when its time to move on.
move.
cheerup!! :)




wells. shall blog again tmrw or something.
taaa!





___hurting. i'm damn friggin pissed now. but its over a small matter.
some excerise can't kill me. riight? but what she said was something that totally shocked me.now i know. why these are happening.
:(

theres something about chinese new year every year that just helps
put a smile on my face. you know those lions that go around playing in hdbs?
i think that is damnn cool la. it totally lifts the spirit and adds to the very dead
festivity. hhahaha.

its the only thing that keeps chinese new year. chinese. actually.
no meh? well. thats what i think la.
okay nevermind. :))

its valentine's todaay! i totally forgot la.
as in seriously forgot. hhahahaha. so i didn't get anything reaady.
i'm so sorry!! :(
but yeaah. i had lotsa candiee. mostly from yixiu la.
hhahaha. thaanks!

ehhs. nicole gave me something nice and simplee.
jess gave me chocolateh.
nicenicee.
i haven't opened anything yet though.
yupp.

was damnn tireed today. couldn't get into the things we were doing.
was quiteee happy during english. but that was shortlived.
hhahaha. i haven't really as in seriously laugh a happy laugh
these few daays. :(
but the next minute you'd probably see me laughing my head off.
so yupp.
don't mind me. :)

so that was today. the same as ever.
boring and totally tiring!
hee. i've got maths test tmrw! aahs.
so ya. off i go!
taaa!




tellmethosethingsyousaidwerenttrueandarejustanillusion.
:(


youareablooodyloser.fishoff.





happyvalentine'sdaay! <3


seriously.its a very dumbb day.
hhahaa. couples don't need valentines
to make their day any more romantic if their
really in love. bweagh. like i know anything!
hhaaha.:)))



_lovemybaby.mwaa.


slept reeeally late last night and woke up at what fivethirty?!
i barely got five hours of sleep lor. wahseh. was so not in the mood to get up.
hummprf. but yeaah. so i dragged myself outta bed and went for mass.
was damn sad la. sobs.

waiting like a stupid fool. never knowing when you're going to show.
pouts.

but yupps. that was mass.
:(
hopefully next week would be better. who knows.
i definately don't.
though sometimes i wished i did.

went to grandma's house after that.
and boy were we lucky. we almost. almoost missed them.
so yeah. had breakfast. chitty chit chat and left.

came home and slogged my guts out!
hhahaaha. no la. finaally. i completed my homework.
only left with a few excerises of maths la.
but i seriously can't be bothered.
i shall do it tmrw or something.

then we went to mah greatgrandmother's house.
we just sat there and stoned.
yikes. boredom. but pamy was there.
so we talkedandtalkedandtalked.
yupp. i'll never believe this but.
i'm kind of tired of talking too much.
heh. i'm not talking sense. ignoree me.

grandma came over with the beest dinner ever!! it was damnn good! shiiok.we had yu shang. mmmm. nicceeee. :)

soyupp. that was today. okay laas. not too bad. gotta go!

bloggin is starting to get meaningless now.
shoot. i just forgot something.
nevermind. anyways. was kindaa bored at home today.
and yet i was so in the homework mood.
hhahaha. that didn't help as i didn't get much done la.
hummprf.

kindaa looking forward for mass tmrw.
feeling like such a sinner.
bleaghh.

i'm sorry if ive hurt you.

i'm so tireed. went swimming today.
woohoo. the pool was like damnn empty can!!
but dinner sucked big time.
so if you round it all up. hhahaha.
going swimming wasn't a very good ideaa.
okaay. i'm not making sense.
am i?

went for mass ytd at st. stephens.
where i had company! heh.
was being so noisy during mass la.
hee. couldn't help it.
but their mass is like super uber short.
their gospel and readings are likee..ehhhs.
one para? woohoo. shiokk. :))
but couldn't really concentrate ytd. all the heat and all.
it was so so so hot ytd.
hhahahaha. but yah. i felt so bad cause sar-ee was in a rush and all
and yet she had to fetch us to and fro.
so. thanks alot!!
:)))

the words on my com. is HUGE.
i feel so blindd. hhaaahaha.

played mahjong todaay! woohoo.
funfun. ohman. this is a habit i so needa kick.
but yaah. i was the ultimatee winner. again. yippee. hhahaha.
:))))

i wanna go out. i wanna go watch constantine.
i heard it was really good. but aiyaahs. i'm so lazy.
ill probably buy the dv or something.
ohman. i'm such an ass.
heee.

better go snooze now.
if i'm gonna wake at fiveplusplus tmrw.
saayo!






__iknowwhenthingsarentmineyeticantseemtobringmyselftoletgoidontseehowthatsgonnahelpbutboyyourebreakingmeintotwo.
mylifesabigpuddleofmessandtheonlyonewhocanuntangleitseemstohavebeenhurtalloverbuttheoneandonlyme.
i'msorrybutivebeenhurtonetwomanytoo.






life's just a cycle. where people just carry on hurting after hurt.








happy chinese new year!!!

well. ytd was okay i guess. it was kind of on the scale. there wasn't much fun la.
but yaah. its just not very right. :))

woke up at 5.30? hahahah. don't ask. so yeah. we got ready and collected our angbaos.
hhahaha. and yeah. sat doing nothing for an hour before leaving the house.
now that was a big mistake. cause practically everyone was still in bed.
so yeah. we sat for four hours at different houses doing nothing.
seriously nothing but eat. hhahaha.

i've practically got no voice now. all the goodies got to me.
:)) so yeah. lunch was nice. afterwhich we went angbao collecting!
hahaha, i mean visiting. but yeah. didn't get much la.

people aint doing well i guess? but yeah. went to visit mah great great grandmother.
before visiting my great grandma. and because of some shitty thing.
we had to rush like mad after visiting uncle davis.
his sofa is like woohoo. damn nicee.
hhahaaha.

so yeah. my heels were getting to me. i was practically the last to wear my shoes.
hummprf. so everyone would be waiting. oppsa. so paiseh.
but aiyaah. that was that.
i've learnt my lesson. :))

should be playing mahjong tonight! yippeee. i'm like damnn excited.
but then again. i've got piles and seriously piles of homework.
:(

i'm up so earlyy. which means that for the next three hours i would be doing nothing!
aaahs. i should probably get back into my bed.
:)))

hopefully today would be much more exciting.
yupps.
happy cny!




__holdingontoyouwasmybiggestmistake.butsowaslettinggo.



i just realised how stupid and crapped up my previous posts were.
we should always live on the bright side of life. look on the positive side.
and not try to achieve what we know would cause alot of people their happiness in
return for ours.

its suprising how the support of your loved onees can keep ya going.
(((X

didn't have pe today. yipee. and we probably won't have it next week too!!
woosh. ((:
so spent the two periods crapping over at noel's. haahaha. her seat is so funnyy.
as in..yah. you knoww. her seating partners. ehhs. rightt. heh. (:

was so tired today. couldn't wake up! bleah.
had to draaag myself outta bed.

don't feel like going tml. so maybe i won't. aiyaah. see how first la.
but i'll probably go afterall. heh.

wells. can you believe it!! chinese new year is like a DAY away.
WEE. gonna bake tonight! happyhappy.
gonna bake brownies. and fight over the oven with the three other cakes.
hee.

did our spring cleaning ytd. we cleared like TWENTY FOUR big HUGEE bags of junk.
so proudaa myself. after breathing in bags of dust and dirt. my housee is cleaan.
my room is like speckless. everything is gone! poof!
(((:

i've been waiting for this since eons ago! found quite a bit of treasures!
like forty bucks! but i can't take it. becaause. i didn't exactly find it.
but it COULD have been mine all along! hhahhaha.
yeaaahs!

letmme give ya a word of advice.
shopping is addictivee!! i so find myself in the mood to spend! spend! spend!
hhahahhaha. but that's also equilvalent to alot of heartache from my mommae.
heh.

wells. i should learn how to control myself. control. control.
yehhey. i can't wait till tml!! i simply lovee reunion dinners!
(((:

all the yummilicious food and yu shang! mwahah.
well. shall runalong now.
miss me!
taaa!


paaamy!
i saw mans blog. your msg was so almost the same!
i'm jealous! hummprf.
hhahahas. yeaah. seeya tml!
mwaa!




__there are some people that you spend your whole life trying to meet, but never seem to see them. yet there are some people that fate binds you to. even if you want to escape, no matter how far you run, you will always meet them. just like me and you.










jesse mccartney - beautiful soul.

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
[Chorus:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry
c`mon lets try
[Chorus]
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah


oh yes! oh yes! i'm one happy girl todaay!
hhahahaha. oh man. ms lim finally changed our seats!!
after three periods with her! hhahaha.
i can't wipe the stupid grin off my face la.
but still. ((((:

ohhs. but there are still unhappy takers. *pouts.
but yes!! i'm freeeee. okay. not exactly actually.
i'm only ONE person away from her. but still!!
*claps claps.

okay la. shan't be mean.
but she kept coming closer and closer to me.
seriously! whats her problem. was kinda ticked off la.
but yaah. shan't kick up a hullaballuu.
so yupp. ill inch and she'll recline. good. good.
hhahahaha.

ohhs. am i'm down with the stupidd flu. i was sneezing like shit la.
all the way till the third last period of the day.
my nose hurt. aurghs.

had our chinese ca today. i'm so going to flunk it. aurghs. don't wanna talk about it.
oh man. assembly was boring like shit.
it was about our eating diet and all. but yah. they can act well. but still.
but i rather this than a talk. yupyup.

i guess realise it takes forever to change seats. hahhaha.
i think you need like three wholeee periods to satisfy everyonee!
oh ya. ms lim's kinda understanding afterall. yupp.
we were all pissed la. so yah. understandablee!
so yah. don't quite blame her anymore.
ohman. i'm never going to leave this topic.

anyways. i like it better when i talking. i hate keeping quiet.
so weird. i miss nataliee!! she's one person i can crap non stop too.
and ya. its damnn nice la.

yupp. maths was damnn fun today. hhhaha.
that was also partly because i wasn't even listening.
but still. *beams.
it was damnn fun. seshaa was doing this dating thingy.
its probaby all boo. but. i'm never gonna get married!!
wth.

i'm so depressed. hhahaha. but yah. who knows. i might like the single lifee!
i'm still young rightt? but can you believe it? if it was truee.
i'm going to be single till i'm thirty?! and maybe beyond that.
aaahh.

ohhh. wait. did i tell you whos my new partner? i'm sitting with dianne.
and. i'm onee seat away from noeelle!
yeaahs!

nat poh got her way too. hhaaha. she's sitting a few centimetres away from andrea.
isn't that good? but i've got a feeling this position won't stay.
cause we're all back in our cliques.
so yuppps.

seee! i told you i'll somehow divert back to this topic.
aurghs.

okaay. back on track. i'm hair's growing rapidly!!! i practically don't see the difference in my hair anymoreee! unless i tie it up of course. but.. aaaahhs. i totally wasted my moneey!
i wanna cut again! my mom's probably going to kill me but. aiyaah.
i know i won't. *pouts.

why does my hair grow waaay faster than the rest?!!! why!! aurghs.
and just when i'm starting to like it.
hhahha. but joyce is like way evil. its not THAT ugly right?! than whats with the bloody laughter?
hummprf. but noelle stood up for mee! yeaah! thanks noel!
but yaah.

noelle loves me no more!! *sobs.
she's got shuping!! hummprf.
BLEAAAH.

but yaah. friendship and stuff like that tends to work in weird ways.
don't ask.

okaay. i think i've talked more than enough todaay.
ohhh!! valentine day's coming! but don't feel like going through all the presents and stuff this year.
see first la.

daaddy's off in malaysia. can you believe it! and he didn't bring me along!!!
aaahs. not fair! hummprf.
how could he. he better bring something back for me.
hhahahas. but yaah.
((:

well. shall go do my maths now. if i can.
i totally didn't listen today la.
taaa!




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