shitt. everything's so screwed! ughh.
the curtains are spoilt. the toliet pipe is leaking. badly.
my towel stinks of the stupidd mosquito sprayy.
which doesn't workk cos i still have so many red thingythings.
my computer is so bloody useless. so is the other two. ahhh..
i'm dyingg. hhahaha. well..

had english paper todayy. im so gonna fail. i tell youu. my composition was totally senseless.
my comprehension was totally crapp. i didn't do my word count! hhaha.
everything is just. screwed.

i'm doing all the typing for dnt. woohoo. and anddd. ive got a tonnes of homework to do!
a thousands of italian terms to memorize by saturdayy! andddd. i'm feeling sickk.
hhahaha.

i sound so pitiful! hhaha. oh mann. i'm so complainy i can't take it.
hhahaha.

but yeahh. soaps and bubbles, sweets and crackers. think happy.
the sun is warm. the grass is green. hhahaha.
but yeahh. theres singaporeidol todayy! yippee.
the super..superr. whatever lahh. but its the grands issit?
cos thats what the person sitting behind me in the bus said.
ughh. i so should have walked with marian and joycee to the interchangee.

i was waiting for the ever so long bus with this guy who takes the same bus as me.
who smokes rightt in my facee. hummph.
yuckuie.

saww my darlingg on tv for 2 whole hours, yipeee.
hhhahaha. and the exams are comingg. sighh.
and i'm so not prepared.
i haven't even started revising.
i haven't even touched the books!
i don't even know what we're tested on!
oh myy. why am i in such a wreck.
hhahaha. but yeahh.
im still lazing in front of the tvv.
thinking that ive got nothing to do.
sighh. im so gonna fail.
hhahaha.
1 more week! 1 more month! and its all overr.
yeahh!
people think about the exam date. i think about the holidaay.
hhhahaha.
aint i different.
hhahahaa.

myy. i boredd.
yawnn.
im sleepyy too.

see what i meann. arghhh.
but yeahh. i don't wanna go to school tomorrow.
yah rightt. but if i had a choice. i wouldn't kay!
hummph.
yeahhh!! their album should be out soon.
in 2 days. its coming out on the octoberfirst.
yippee. andd. thats childrens day too. right?
saw the primary school bus dwnstairs todaay. all the kids dressed in clothes that doesn't look like school clothes and holding canddyy. not fairr. hhaha.
but yeah. its hols tmrrw. for them that is.

tuesday's mooncake festivial was kindaa funn. played with the sparkles and the candles.
my latern was prettypretty. it was yellow orange and red. nicenice.
hhahaha. but yeahh. had lotsaa funn. didn't get to walk round da park thoughh.
yeahh. made my sesame mooncakee! mmm. niceee. hhahahas.

ouchie my heartheadheartstomachhead hurts. hhahaha
but yeahh. better get going noww.
to see my showw. anddd. studyy,
during comercials. rightt.
hhaahhhaa


+broken and smashed.






[time changes people don't theyy.no one tells me whats going on anymore.
or is it just me.maybe i should just growup and stop being so childish and full of immaturity.
but i don't wanna mature so fast.im only 14.but time doesn't wait for people do they.
each one trying to beat the other at their own game.is that what life is all about.
if you don't want to be a whole anymore.i guess the circle can be broken.and stay broken.
its hard to be the mender.its even harder is you were the one who created the mess.
im tired of it all.the cold and hot.i guess i contributed alot to this mess too.im sorry.
i really want us to go back to how we used to be.full of laughter and far from worry.far from the cold and hurting noww.im just as sick and tired of it all.just like how you are.
guess its time for me to grow upp.sighh.]





god is capable in creating miracles.
just belive in him.
and with your strong faith.
will miracles befall.
ilovemygod.mylord. :)





looking forward to sunday's mass.




god sent-.
baahh.



hulaa hoop*milkkshakee.*esprit*mmmm*smacksmack.





mylifesuckss.hummph.
ughh..i hate my computer!! its like so screwed. heh.
yeahh! finally its fridayy. hhaha.

mooncake festival's coming! and yeahh. watched the an ode to life? is that what its called?
but yeahh. omgoshh. nick shen is so cute. hhahaha.
i feel so sickkk-

finally got my vcds. righhtt. im supposed to return jess hers. hhahaha.
i can never remember such stuff.
baahh.

ehhs. all the exams are comingg. in like two weeks. right. uh huhh. and..i haven't started revising!
wow. hhahaha.
starting to feel da pressuree.

nothing muchh happened todayy. couldn't find my drinkk anywhere. was damnn disappointed.
hhahaha. but yeahh.

theres nothing to see on tvv. ughhh.
no more edwin to see. hhhahaha.
shall go watch a princess dairies2.
miss my untouchablee darlingg. sobbs.
hhahaha. feel so sillyy.

one more month and its holidaay, yeahh!
hhahaha. boyy do time flyy. mymymy. i have nothing to blog about seriously.
ahhh. so i guess i shallll stop here.
boring.


+sucidial.




its hard to take back what youve vomitted
and hurt people withh.
its even harder to ask for their forgivness.
regretting my actions bigg time;
although i know i can trust you.
just don't believe that theres anyone trustworthy out there.
after all. its is a shameless world.


i want to go back being the old me.
but i guess thats impossible
its so hard to get through to anybody nowadys.
sighh.
isoneedabreak.
from. reality.



waah..so long never updatee. hhahah.
but yeahh. woke up at 1030 todayy. did finish my maths tb.
can't bring myself to start on the cath. high paper. ughh. its like damnn bloody thick!?
hhahha. but yeahh.

mommie bought me mah hulaa hoop todaay. the water onee. yeaahhh!
yeahh. hhahahaha. oh yeahhh.
theres gonna be a youth day mass on 3rd oct. and guess what?! i'm chosen to be warden.
yucks. and jenny is like so persistent. she just wouldn't choose anyone else.
and guess whos my partner? john! of all people. *sigh.
but..hes not that bad right? i pray so hard yes. hhahaha.
but uh huh. no one wants to replace mee.

why didn't you get chosen instead. hummph. but yeahh.
wouldn't be attending cath. next week just to go for rehershal.
i just prayy so hard, somehow john will havehave to sing for choir and thenn. maybeee.
you'll be my partner instead!
hhahaha. but yeahh. philip had to go back and claim his bible. hhaha.
and as usual he didn't come back. next week he sure kana scolding one.
*sigh. if only he'll just be moree...emm. guai. but thats so not philip. hhahaas.

its gonna be so malu-ating. *sighh.
3rd oct. has just becomed cursed. hees. but yeah. i guess it would be a good experience! =)
kindaaa excited noww. hhahaha.

wells, walked home with noel, char, jz and nicole on friday. yeahh. laughed a lott.
uh huh . had fun lahhs.
oooo.. had sea coconut for desert. mmmm. niceee! =)
bleaahs.
but yeahh.

daddie broke my earring todayy. goshh. i would have moan and moan but yeah. since he agreed to pay double. hhahas. no lahh. i doubt i'll claim my money from him.
but i still can't believe he broke it!! he's like one big giant who can't handle anything delicate.
sobbs. hummphh.

ehhhs. been suffering from terrible rash and sleepless nights nowadays. i meann. i do sleep.
but its likee. on and off. i feel forced to sleep. aiyahhh. but the problem is. i'm tired!
waahhh. sobbs.

cleared my file todaay. =)
hhahha. oooo. don moen's coming to sg. for concertt!! i waanna go. but mommie don't want.
so..we're not going. sobbs.

ughhh. feeling so sicckk noww. *sighh.
lalalalalalalaaa.

oh. anger management is such a good showw. hhahahaha. so funnyy. hees.
lovee the songg. miss my darlingg. sobbs.
heard he went overseas. probably to japan. uh huh.
sighhh...

oh! oh! the ch8 8oclock showw. is damnn nicee. if don't have dou zheng i sure watch onee.
*poutts.
ughh. but yeahh. su you peng is damnn cuteee. hhahahahaa.
but yeahh. onlyyy cute when he's actingg. hhaha.
oh..thurs sg idol. had olindaa!! hee. she's so bloooday cute.
yupps. i think she did something to her hair.
right? right?
uh huh. the syvester guy also damnn cute. ha.

oooh. caught a cinderellla story over the hols. goshh. chad is damn cute.
heh. but yeahh. he's engaged. sobbs.
gonna get the dv. hopefully. hhahahaha. the show was nicee.
touchingg. teared a bittt lahhs. hhahaha.
but yeaahh. =)

wanna get the lian ai zi you shi vcdd. hopefully in canto. althoughh. i don't understand.
but..hhahahha. its like chinese no? hhahaha.
yah rightt! bleaaahh. see first lahh.
edwin 's cutee. hhahahaha.
found alott of pics of him. yippee.
hhahahaha. but yeahh. ughh.



*fcuk.

the last day of school! yippee! hhahaha. but not much of enjoyment going through me. sigh. its like the beginning of another nightmare.

sheesh talk about holiday when all that revolves around you is your hwrk and home. yucks.

hhahah. didn't get to go anywhere today. stayed in school till 430 to accompany nicole accompany cheryl. yeahh. they were supposed to be studying. and i didn't want to go home myself. natalie my backup partner wasn't here. hhahaha.
usually even so i would go home myself. but nahh.
it was the last day of school! and i was so talkative. i didn't want to walk down the everlasting hill feeling all grumpy cos there's no one to talk too!

hhahas. but yeahh. sat still for 1 hour. watching them study. ewww.
im never ever going to do that ever again. it was so ultimately bo-ring.
should have done my hwrk. but nahh.

so thats how the last day of school ended. sighh. wee.
hhahha. i feel so dryy.
it's daddie's birthday todayy! =)

happy birthdayyyy to youuu. hhahaha.
yeahh. thought of the surprise this year.
so proud of myself. hhahaha. but he not fun one. lousyy.

hummph. but yeahh. don't feel like attending guitar tmrw. im so bloody tired.
sighh. ehhs. i feel sickk. hees.

so many things have been bothering me these days. but yeahh. just cant get it into words. damnn. but yeahh. i don't like talking to people uninvolved about such stuff like that. make them wanna feel sympathetic. when they don't understand!! hhhahaha. but yeahh. i appreciate their goodness.

the person i need to talk too. just won't listen. even if she did. i just can't bring myself to say it out righttt in front of her face. so malu.
like so childish. i outta grow up! bleaahs.

hhahahaa. oh mann. today is like one of my talkative days! hhee.
pe was kinda fun today. laughed quite a hell lot.
was playing freeze and melt with joanna and co.
then we went to the lao ying game.
hhahaha.so long never play already. feel so old playing such games.
imagine me. 40 years down the road playing the very same game.

*thinks. EWW. yucks. so unimaginable. hhahahaha.
after playing. laid around. as in literally.
hhaha. pigg. but yeahh. lessons were okay i guess.
all the cas i got back were not but red marks. waaaahh.
feel like slapping myself. hheh.

but yahh. chinese was okay i guess. not up to standard lahh.
yepps.


+secluded.


feel like changing my url. nicole lahh! infulence me. hhahah. but yeahh.
shall change around the end of the year lahh. yepps.




jealousy. the thing that pushes two apart.
hurt. the thing that causes two to feel sad.
pain. the thing that one of the two inflicted.
sorry. an apology hard to accept.

who knows right from wrong. who knows true from false.
not till one've experienced wrong. and false
not till that point of time they learn to regret.
the scars then inflicted.
are harded to forget.
than imagined.




youve hurt me. once and once again.
and yet i still love you.
but please just don't push me away.




had maths ca today. guess it was okaay. hhaha. so far. i think i only got one question right? heh. really hope i pass this test thoughh. considering how much i studied.
ughh. failed the stupid geog. ca. meaning i have to copy 10 chapters?! ahhh. *faints.

well..the rash got disgusting today. couldn't scratch on top of that. felt like commiting sucide arh.
hee. school's no fun anymore. so sick and tired of school school school. no fun one! *pouts.

can't wait for the hols! then can sleepsleepsleep. i wanna go for holidaayy! don't care whether malaysia or whatever. i just wanna leave singapore's disgusting weather. ughh!!

mood hasn't been any good nowadys. although. there hasn't been any hw nowadys. hmm. i suprised.
hhahhaa. esp. from mrs wong! its like so unbelievable. hhahahaa.

yeahh! there's singapore idol tonight! not looking forward to it though..there's no one i know or interested in...hummph.

ehhhhs. boredboredbored. sighh. guitar was okaay today i guess. finally!! i can chuck my stupiddd
guitar!! woosh! that means i can go early for class! wee. hhahahaa.

so sick and tired of rushing up and down like a mad woman..love ms sin! its all her doing!
one word from her and im free from all suffering. hhahahaa.
aiyahh. bleahhhs.

feel like attending midnight mass at wherever there is midnight mass. but..i doubt there is..
hmmm..i mean. theres no celebration or what so ever going on. right?

oosh. just had mooncake. mmm. nice! =P *smacks.
i feel like drinking bubble teaa! arhh...

i feel like a pregnant woman! lols. i have a thousand and one complains. hahahaaa.
i miss my darlingg. sighh.


+lost and confused.





maybe i wouldn't feel so hurt if i just totally forgot about you.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004 10:06 AM / to top

yeahh! happy t-char's day! to all da t-chars who have taught me! =)
well..there is a one day hols. and its back to school for 2 pathetic days till our one week break! yeahh!! =P

so looking forward to the break. sighh. well..woke up so bloody early todayy.
hummph. should be going out ltr to buy daddie's pressie. not sure yet..uh huh.

wells. yesterday's celebrations was disgusting! sheesh. we had to miss the fun part of the entire celebration? the mass. hhahaha. so crapp. heh.
but yeahh. had to go for ep. so gonna miss mr. yeo.

yin ting was such a good friend yesterday. hhahahaha..thanks my dear! bleaahs.

well..everything's kinda screwed nowadys. my mood has been woaahh.
i ought to be isolated. goshh. can't stand myself. hees.

down with the terrible rash. *scratch scratch. i feel like a stupid cat with fleas.
goshh. eww.

nothing muchh happened..right? i totally can't remember. heh. went for charismatic on friday? got slained? it was to me utterly freaky. but yeah.
its supposed to be good? yupp. =)

but it was fun i guess. but i was late. hhahahaha. as usual. =P
but i was early on sunday for the project. trust me. i was early.
my mood was kinda down that day too.

it had to be the time of the month. hhahaha. yeahh!! ghost month is gonna be over..soon? hhahahaa..15 more days i thinkk. yeahh. saturday was the worst day of my life. i had the worst cramps ever. and i had to run up..run down...ughhh.

but yeahh. when i realised it was his birthday. you should have seen my mood change. see lahh. i was so busy i didn't even realise. hummph.
but yepp. had chocolate banna cake after mass. hmmmmmmm. it was so good!
yeahh. the boys left first. they didn't want to attend mass. my cramps were so bad i didn't want to either. but nahhh.

it's his birthday. hhahahaa. =P *pouts
ooh. i know when's mother mary's birthday!! it's on the 8th of sept.? yeahh. i shouldn't be wrong. is it sept? ahh.. can't remember.

sunday was funn though. all the church stuff. hhahahha. bleahhs. but yeahh.
had funn. hees.

monday and tues were so-so i guess...yeahhh. sighh.
i so utterly bored!! whyy..why did i wake up so early?! maybe shall call nicole see whether she wanna go out. heh. yeahhs.
*beams.

later then. and my bloody computer is on my nerves!! ughh.

+blast you.



you are the only one who can mend my heart.
yet also the only one who can break it into a million and one pieces.
but then again..youre just no more than just my fantasy.
but if i could..i would.
wish for someone who'd bring us together..
forever...
.
if onlyy. i could. i would

K: kuek
M: moose!
N: nicole
P: peiying
R: rebecca


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